mr dlb style

3 Satyrs

2010-04-30T17:48:00.004-07:00

The problem with liking what you do at work, is that you can do it all day and not get bored or sick of it, then you have been working all day and not realize it. Which would probably be fine if you worked in a job that payed you hourly but I do not. I just worked from 9am to 9pm now and will only be paid 8 hours of that time. Boo!

Oh well, it was fun. I learned new tricks with Indesign. And that is always fun.

But when I am not working (although it seems like I am always working) I have been drawing this...

This picture is getting me thinking about doing a Satyr and Faerie party.

Do you think the guys will dress up like this?

I doubt it. But it would be fun.

The original is actually 10 feet x 10 feet. It's huge, so if I do a party I could have this printed out and be a wall. lol

Hope you like it, and don't use it without permission la la la.

dlb

Family, Politics, and War!

2010-04-28T16:24:00.004-07:00

Got to post this Crazy and amazing e-mail conversation I have had with my family. More may come if it keeps coming in.

Names have been changed to protect anonymity.

Original E-mail sent in Mass format that got sent to me. From someone we will name Dave.

Dave:

THIS WILL CURDLE YOUR BLOOD AND CURL YOUR HAIR

Obama's reading material is, The Post-American World!

"Post" America means the world After America !

The book was written by a fellow Muslim.
Forward this picture to every American, conservative or liberal.

Obama's radical ideas will bring down our beloved America..

Love'm or hate'm,we need to be aware of this.

And, if you think as I do that he is the worst person to move into the Oval Office;

Let's take the bugger down through the Internet.

The majority of the press are worshiping at his feet.

If each person sends this to a minimum of twenty people on their address list,

in three days, all people in The United States of America would have the message.

I believe this is one expose' that really should be passed around.

So I replied:

Thank you for this but I think that it is quite misleading. Because of 2 things.

1. This book has nothing to do with a want for America to decline. A simple google search on this book got me the Amazon booksellers website. The description for the book is this... http://www.amazon.com/Post-American-World-Fareed-Zakaria/dp/039306235X

There is a good interview with the Author on the Amazon sellers website as well that you may want to read before casting too many stones.

I seem to agree with some of what he says and don't agree with other parts. But it definitely paints a much less Radical opinion than the original letter has implied.

2. Even if it were Anti-American Propoganda wouldn't it be in the presidents best interest to read it to know what he is up against? It would be akin to Roosevelt reading Mein Kahmf (Hitler's book) during World War II to know his enemy better.

I am not the type of person who believes in following a leader blindly, and I totally support calling the president on every move that he makes if they are mistakes. Full court pressure no matter who the president is. But lets be fair and honest with our criticisms and not jump to irrational conclusions.

Love you all and hope you are well

dlb

Then others got involved

We will name him Luke:

I can only say AMEN to the below comment!! Very well said.

Jared:

I agree Daniel!! Following blindly only leads to trouble!!

Dave again:

i to belive that one should read the books of ones enemy just as Patton read Romels book. i have read any thing on tactics of any previous leaders succes or failur that i can get my hands on just to ensure that my soldier get the best training posible. But picture or no picture the guy is a snake who will take the same mindless aproach to our defence and offence that other less agressive presidents have taken (i would give examples but i get angry just thinking about them if you want to know pick up "The Men, The Mission and Me" by Pete Blaber). Say what you want about the wars in Iraq and Afganastan and what you belive the reasons for being there are, but i have walked on the sands and I belive the cause is just. With a president setting a date or timeline for withdraw you only tell the enemy that they have to lay low and hold out till the day they can go back to training for attacks on our soil instead of fighting us on thiers. Just think what would the world be like today if durring WW2 some one said ok the nazis are back on german soil lets go home now. so do i belive that obama is a extrimest NO but do i beleive his politics are an unseen enemy YES

Luke:

Dave, for better or worse, our founding fathers saw fit to have civilian control over the military. In my opinion that was a brilliant move. If you favor a government where the military rules then your view of history of those kinds of governments is different from mine.

If Obama's policies is truly an enemy of the military then why did he send all those extra troops to a 14th century country that has never in all of history since Alexander the Great been defeated? The terrorist enemy is not subject to the sledge hammer approach of an army. We're just wasting young lives. We've already lost far more lives in dead and severely wounded than all of those that died in the twin towers on 9/11.

We need a smart war, one with special ops and drones ferreting out the rats who are the terrorists, not bludgeoning an entire country, innocent and guilty alike with massive military operations. I'm unhappy with Obama but only because he hasn't ended these unjust and ineffective wars immediately. Perpetually fighting a war of no end only gives victory to the terrorists who, small in number and elusive, are laughing as we drain our treasury and the blood of our precious soldiers without any defiinite goal or end point.

Penny:

I have one question for you: "If you were a soldier, like Dave is now, would you want your life in the hands of the politicians?"

It is easy for politicians both Republicans and Democrats to sit safe and comfortable in Washington D.C. posturing with their politics; while our soldiers like Dave, along with his brothers ___ and ____, are on the front lines fighting for us. The politicians need to "untie" the hands of the military leadership who are there on the front lines where the military leaders see what needs to be done and can get the job done.

I will use an analogy of a car. The driver sees what's going on in front (i.e. traffic signals, pedestrians, obstacles, oncoming traffic, etc.). However riding shotgun is the driver's boss giving orders on which way to turn, what laws to obey, how to move forward, pause and so forth. BUT the front passenger driver is not using his judgement on what he sees outside the windshield; he is directing the driver based on orders from a cellphone. On the other line are the Executives barking out orders: Go forward; No wait, stop; Turn Left...Oops Stop Turn Right.

While the driver and front passenger have their lives on the line, the Executives are sitting comfortably in no danger enjoying their regular fat paychecks. Obviously driver = soldiers, front passenger = military command, and fat cat executives = politicians.

It angers me that all these politicians regardless of their politics can sit in Washington D.C. making decisions that affect ALL Americans while they themselves are exempt from the fallouts. Say what you want Lee; I am a person who wants equity and justice for all. But I am an American citizen, my parents were immigrants who came to America legally from a different country. I was taught to respect the United States of America and I can tell you that the majority of people in Hawaii are not proud that Barack Obama is from Hawaii. The majority of us in Hawaii will tell you he is a liar who was born in Indonesia, he is a Muslim, and is evil. He is only protected by some politicians in Hawaii (again with the greedy politicians who love their monies). I personally do not trust liars from whatever beliefs or walks of life they hail from.

Holler out to the __________ Family ~ the majority of the addressees here are from the ___________ Family. All I want is for us to love each other as family and support each other. We still have our freedom thanks to the bravery of soldiers past and present.

I do know one thing...Family protects its own. Right now we have family safely retired from the military, family that recently retired from the military, and family in the military: HOOAH to the present family in the military

It is for them that I care not about the politicians, except that they stand back and stop endangering my family! Next time I say we put the politicians ALL of them on the front line of EVERY issue to see if they'd still make the same decisions.

Jared:

To all readers!

I have enjoyed that we have all felt comfortable in shareing our thoughts and feelings politically! I do want to say one thing...the start of all this discussion was that an email that didn't have it's sources right was sent out...while I second the love that I have for the soldiers in our family and across the world!! The issue is that propaganda goes out and it's believed without questioning it. Herein is the problem!

Penny I love the analogy and I agree that our politicians are the fatcats sitting back doing nothing but the real power is in OUR voice!! Make it heard!! Get involved with what is happening around you!! OUR voice gets the politicians where they are and when they stop standing for what we believe we need to replace them!!

Love you all and can't wait to see you at the family reunion!!

Luke:

Penny, what then is your alternative to the system we have now? I'm asking a serious question... how would you structure government to eliminate the problems between politicians and the military? How many governments throughout history have not sent their young men out to fight while they stay back in there capitols, palaces or fortresses and give orders?

I share your your feelings for those brave souls who are out there on the front lines. Dave, his brothers and all the other men and women. My problem is that I feel too many of them have died or been wounded needlessly, even though valiently for wars ill conceived and executed.

We are fighting an enemy that has no nationality and who's numbers we only have a vague idea of. It just seems to me that there could be better ways to root out these international criminals than decimating an entire country with the all the collateral destruction of lives and property of the inhabitants. Swatting a fly with sledge hammer doesn't seem the most logical way. I blame the politicians as you do but they are being advised by generals and admirals and the crap just keep on being handed down to the guys with the rifles.

I lived in Hawaii for 33 years and taught school while Obama was attending Punahou. I'm surprised that you say that the majority of Hawaiian residents are not proud of him. How do you know this? I haven't seen any polls that show this. Maybe you can point me to the information, I've missed it. None of the people I correspond with over there have indicated this. Let me know where I can find those facts. Has it been published in the Advertiser or Star Bulletin?

Also can you direct me to the evidence of his Indonesian birth? Is there a document to back that up unlike the one on record in Hawaii showing his birth there? If there isn't any evidence, could it be that Obama's enemies are the ones who are lying? Just a thought.

Also he can't be a very good Muslim and never attend services in a mosque or throw down his prayer rug 5 times a day and bow to Mecca. Instead he proclaims a Christian faith, meets with Christian ministers such as Billy Graham. If he's a liar, he sure is a good one being under constant public scrutiny you'd think someone would catch him in the act of being Muslim!

Anyway, Pennyi, Mahalo for joining in the conversation and sharing your Mana'o.

Dave again:

Ok Luke mabey you miss interpit what i say a little bit but not much but here is the real deal with facts to prove if you would like to check. I do not beleive that we should be under military rule but i do belive that a congressman from BFE with no tactical or military experiance should be able to say a mission is a go or a no go. Military missions should be under the control of Military Leaders. SPECOPS and UAV's work great but if they are not ran correctly they are just as usless as sending the police to fight a fire. now here are the facts from unclasified military documents. Durring 1998 a commander from Special Operations Detachment Delta AKA Delta Force was given the task of perparing an operation of a snatch and grab of a know terrorist leader Osama Bin Laden. durring this time bin Laden was a creature of habit from growing up with a life of privilage he routinely used a satelite phone and travled around afganastan in a convoy of newer Range Rovers. when the concept of the operation was compleet and presented to the president (a politican) for a proval he was determined not a priority of that administration. 4 months latter he put in to play the bomings of 2 us embasies in affrica. less than a year latter a chance came again to capture or kill bin laden and the SPECOPS Commanding general sugestion to use the plan on soldiers from delta was declined to fire 76 tomahaks at the locations that the wonder of electronic enteligenc said the target would be. he was not and becaus of the attack of empty targets bin laden relized he was a target and went under ground.

Second Fact. Durring the inital invasion of afganastan a politician decided to use special ops to lead the inital assult in to afganastan on 2 targets a air field and a house of a suspected taliban leader. both targets where highly likley to be empty but this did no matter to the politican with the plan this operation was about shock and aww and CNN news coverage though military leaders advised against it and had credibal intel stateing that the enemy was still in thier homes in kandahar. the plan was sent forward for shock and aww. this plan became an embarsement for the military and made the enemy relize that we had intentions to invade afganastan so the fled to the mountains and the shaikot vally to set up to deffend against the invaders. which further led to the mess known as operation anaconda. Both of these are prime examples of politicans sticking thier heads where they dont belong. Every soldier joins the military with knowlage that they could die in combat some day and yet still accept this and some time reenlist to stay even after they have been deployed to combat zones been shot at but yet still they stay. But when you let the politicans dictate the rules of engagment then you prolong the war because you dont let the soldiers play to win.

Just becaus obama sent in extra troops dose not mean hes a friend of the military he has anounce plans to with draw from both countries and a rough timelin to do it Think of it like this you just robed a bank and your in the 27 hour of hostage negotations and while holding up in seige you see on the news that the mayor just ordered the police chief to head back to the station if it goes to hour 29. Second he as just given me the worst pay raise i have recived in 10 years in the militray which is less than the anual inflation rate so basicly he just gave the entire army a huge pay cut. and last in 2008 the democrat party drew up a bill that would call for a time line for withdraw from iraq atached to the same bull was the military 2009 pay raise now what kind of low life POS would tie thier own ajenda to the pay of the military well i will tell you who was on the commity OBAMA!!!

Luke:

Dave, thanks for taking the time to explain all this to me. I am far from being any kind of military expert, Having lived through the Vietnam era I know full well what politicians can do with a war effort that goes bad.

As for Obama, I'm not going to make any excuses for him. Certainly anything he does is not going to please everyone but I don't think he's any worse than Bush. From your perspective I can understand your anger regarding the pay raise. I didn't get ANY raise in my social security, we all suffer in this very bad economy, which by the way, Obama inherited from the previous administration. His efforts to dig us out of the hole Bush and the Republicans left us in may not be pretty or beneficial to everyone right away but like it or not, the majority of Americans elected him president and we just have to live with it until the next election. Then if he has screwed up as badly as you think, then work for his defeat in 2012. Those of us who are more liberal suffered through the hell of Bush for 8 years, now those right of center will just have to suck it up and do the same. The pendulum will swing eventually, it always has as long as the people have the vote.

Dave again:

yes war dose cost a lot of money 795 Billion durring the bush administration to be exact but durring the first 3 months of the obama adminstration he send us in the red another 900 billion which went to bailing out banks and people still lost thier homes bailing out major coperations and people still lost thier jobs and the recivers of the bail outs used the money to give them selves 7 figure bonuses im sure that will help out with campain contributions in 2012 demecrat or republican any body should be able to see through this BS

At this point I felt that the discussion had strayed quite a bit, so this was my next response...

Wow Dave,

It is so refreshing to hear your opinion. I feel like the vast majority of the public both Conservative and Liberal are bombarded with opinions and "facts" by the media that we sometimes don't know what to think. I have often heard right wing and left wing pundits spout off "what the troops think of... is..." and I have often wondered to myself, what do the troops REALLY think of this. I have never thought to just ask you. Someone that I know that is living the reality of war while I sit safe in my Hippie community.

I love the fact that we share a name, a family tree, grew up together (remember those crazy sleep overs we used to try to stay up all night playing video games?), we are very close in age, and still have made very different life choices. You chose to serve humanity by protecting this country from the violence of the world. I chose to serve humanity by being a pacifist and have it in my head to work for non-profits to promote growth and peace. I feel honored to be associated with you.

I have had the distinct privilege to lead somewhat of a double life. I spend 9 months of the year in what I lovingly call my Hippie community. We tend to be a pretty liberal bunch. So much so that most people here consider Obama Right Wing and Conservative. I have probably been to as many governmental protests and rallies against the Democrats as I have been against the Republicans with this group.

Then I travel back to Utah for 3-4 months of the year for the holidays while my job season is over. This puts me back into the world of the Conservative. Where Billboards for Glenn Beck outnumber that of anything else I have seen and people watch Fox News for most of their information.

If there is anything that I have learned from this experience is that we all want basically the same things. We all want shelter, food, and to live in peace with our families. Regardless of what the media and politicians like us to believe Americans tend to be very similar across the board. Can we find "Hot Button" Issues that spark a flame in us all? Absolutely! And politicians and media are in the business of doing this for votes and viewership. But we the american people (in my experience) all want the same thing. And I think that is beautiful.

I just had the privilege to sit in a community discussion with one of my teachers, Julia Butterfly Hill, (She is the crazy hippie you may remember that sat in a tree for 2 years to save a forest from being clear cut, (there is a simpsons episode that spoofs this that you must see if you haven't yet, it's quite funny)) she said that one of the pitfalls in trying to be "right" is that we tend to forget that we are connected. And that seems to be the disease that plagues our lands today. I seem to have forgotten that in my original e-mail and for that I am sorry. I was triggered, Shempa is what that is called in the Buddhist tradition, or the hook that gets us passionate and angry. And I forgot that we all want the same thing.

Dave, I would love to add your e-mail to my list and ask you questions about things that I don't understand. Get clarity about some of the "truths" that I hear all around me all the time and pick your brain about your opinion on them if you don't mind.

One quick thing I would like to point out that has been bothering me about this exchange before I close out this novel I seem to be writing (sorry, I normally don't speak this much).

It pains me to hear people equate Muslim with "Bad Guy". Let's try to remember that the VAST majority of the Muslim people are peace loving and do not agree with Bin Laden's politics or his way of getting things done. Saying that all Muslim's are terrorists or that they are bad because they are Muslim is like saying that all Christians belong to the KKK, or all Mormons Have a few hundred children locked in a basement. People go crazy in all religions and no religion has dodged that bullet.

Thanks for your time if you even read this far, can't blame you if you didn't. :)

The End.

Crazy right?

Just wanted to keep this to remember it. I will post more if more happens. :)

And so it begins...

2010-04-13T09:55:00.002-07:00

Got my Full Timers in and training them away.

Gonna be a fun year. They are nice and funny and have good personalities. Both have fun quirks that will keep things interesting and both have a pretty good work ethic.

My Goal for this season is to make the dub room a non issue. What I mean by that is to make it secondary to our experience here in the Community. If we feel that we are always here then I have failed. But if things start slipping through the cracks then I have failed as well.

Lets see how it goes. :)

dlb

2010-04-03T15:20:00.002-07:00

Here is my latest work.

It was specifically meant to be a desktop wallpaper.

please don't use without permission. :) and all that rot.

This one was fun because I did draw this whole thing. (well... using some photoshop tricks I have learned for the circles)

This is all thanks to one of the best gifts I have ever recieved, my bamboo drawing pad. It has changed my art forever!

Love all, and Jai Hanuman!

dlb

It's the new me!

2010-04-03T15:13:00.002-07:00

I am going through Saturn Return!

So many changes are happening in my life that I felt like I should start blogging again.

This is nice because I never know if people are ever reading it. And frankly I don't care. It is mostly meant to be an online journal.

But I also want to make sure to put up posts of my art and get that out there.

I may be looking into an Etsy account or a Paypal account to start selling things online.

Anyway, look for stuff coming your way. (he says to the air)

dlb

Second venture into Photoshop!

2009-04-18T08:45:00.003-07:00

This was inspired by a meditation i did. I envision something like this every time i meditate on a garden or such.

dlb

Adventures in Photoshop!

2009-04-18T08:12:00.001-07:00

Just got CS4 for my home computer. Thanks to my job. :)

I've been playing around trying to learn about it.

These are some of the products of my play.

hope you like.

My Daemon

2008-07-24T06:15:00.002-07:00

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I think i have forgotten how this Html thing works since i haven't been using it very much the past year.

OMG!!!

that last post was kindof depressing.

lol

life is much better since then. what... a year and a half ago.

I think i might keep blogging on here... cause... it's cathartic in the least. but i don't think im going to try to promote it like i had been.

it will be our little secret. you (whoever you are) and me... (whoever i am).

ne way...

love and light

dlb

My Daemon

2008-07-24T06:11:00.001-07:00

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2006-11-13T13:36:00.001-07:00

dlb

Am I a looser?

2006-11-02T21:07:00.000-07:00

Wait ... Don't answer that.

I can answer it myself.

I live in a ghost town of a trailer park in a trailer without hot water. I just took a shower in a outdoor non-heated bathouse. I am sitting alone talking to Will and Grace and Desperate Housewives because they seem to be the only things that willingly come to my house to visit. Ok, so I pay for them through netflix, but damn it I want them. I work with and will be roomates with, probably the most perfect man for me that god hath created, but wait he is straight and seriously involved with my friend who will also be living very near by so they can dangle their relationship in front of me like the carrot and the Donkey. And oh yah, one more thing, I do the job of four people and don't get paid half of what I should for just one of those jobs.

What am I doing? This is the part where I have to laugh at myself to keep from crying.

Some one please find me the perfect job and man that I can move to tomorrow and forget that I ever had this crazy existence.

Ok so my job isn't that bad. In fact it actually is quite good and I am learning alot. and my situation isn't as bad as it sounds. well... the living situation is kindof bad but will get better next week. I am just in a pitty party mood. and as there is no one here to pitty me I am searching for it on cyberspace.

Ok I am done now.

love and light.

dlb

I am taking the Plunge!

2006-08-26T06:09:00.000-07:00

Literally!!

in two days time I will be doing this...

Wish me luck.

I can't wait.

dlb

Will Pluto be demoted or will 3 more planets be promoted?

2006-08-16T06:59:00.000-07:00

In the hope of ending years of wrangling, a committee of astronomers and historians has proposed a new definition of the word “planet” that would expand at a stroke the family of planets from 9 to 12 and leave textbooks and charts in thousands of classrooms out of date.

Read more on this site.

http://www.nytimes.com/2006/08/16/us/16pluto.html?ex=1313380800&en=9f6789344376a6c9&ei=5088&partner=rssnyt&emc=rss

I can't believe this...

I totally predicted that this would happen.

I wonder what this will mean for Astrology?

dlb

Today I feel weird...

2006-08-13T19:23:00.000-07:00

Is anyone else having a totally odd day?

I am...

I am completely off.

I don't know weather I am coming or going.

I don't know whether weather is supposed to be spelled whether or weather.

It's been one of those kinds of days.

Do you ever get the idea that you are just not meant to have a job. Like maybe you actually were meant to be a bum. or maybe that you were meant to just live off your parents for many years? Do you? No? Oh no... me neither... Umm...Grapes are Keen!

Ne way...

Happy Birthday to my Mom!!!

I love her so much.

And now for something completely different.
I am kindof in a wierd mood partly because I have spent alot of time thinking about the past, and the type of person that I used to be. I mean the person that I used to be would have looked at this picture and had a completely different expierience than what I have today. I mean I used to actually believe in a heaven and a hell. and that a god sat in judgement of us all and decided which we should go to for all eternity. Now not only do I not believe in Heaven or in Hell but I also dont' believe in a all knowing all seeing superior being that is going to cast judgement on us. I mean don't get me wrong I do belive in "God", just not the kind of God that everyone else seems to mean. I mean I don't believe in a God that takes an active roll in this world. Praying to him doesn't do anything in my belief system, because we already have the power to do everything he does ourselves. I believe that we are all gods and goddesses ourselves and that we just decided to come to this world that this God created to expierience ourselves more fully so we decide to turn off some of off some of our powers so that we can expierience the others more keenly. kindof like when a person goes blind their hearing becomes more keen. Ne way... I don't know why I was saying all of this really other than to say what an odd day I have been having.

dlb

Oh yeah and...

2006-08-07T05:43:00.000-07:00

Can I have this for my Birthday?

dlb

Is it offense I am feeling?

2006-08-07T05:22:00.000-07:00

Mitt Romney of Massachusetts, apologized this week for using the racial epithet "tar baby" at a Republican political gathering in Iowa over the weekend while describing a collapse in a Big Dig tunnel that killed a Boston woman on July 10. He said the best thing he could do politically is to "just get as far away from that tar baby" of a subject as he could.

Tar baby is a pejorative term referring to African-American children, especially girls, and was used by whites during American slavery. Today, the term has come to depict a sticky mess or situation, referring to the 19th-century Uncle Remus stories in which a doll made of tar was used to trap Brer Rabbit.

Eric Fehrnstrom, the governor's spokesman said, "The governor was describing a sticky situation. He was unaware that some people find the term objectionable, and he's sorry if anyone was offended." How could a man who is the governor of the diverse state of Massachusetts, and who wants to be president, not know this?

(this whole story can be found @ planetout.com)

In an interview with Ann Coulter, author of "Godless: The Church of Liberalism," on the July 27 edition of MSNBC's "Hardball" with host Chris Matthews, Coulter called former vice president Al Gore a "fag," and she hinted that Bill Clinton might be gay.

"How do you know that Bill Clinton is gay?" Matthews asked.

"He may not be gay, but Al Gore, total fag. No, I'm just kidding," Coulter stated. And in referring to Clinton, Coulter continued, "I mean, everyone has always known wildly promiscuous heterosexual men have, as I say, a whiff of the bathhouse about them."

WoW!!!

I do my best not to take offense at these kinds of things. Offense is a dish that I don't care for. It is a choice and a silly one in my opinion. What I do, is loose respect for the people who use these terms.

I have been faced with this issue alot this year. I mean people use the word Gay as a derogatory putdown. "that is so GAY!" meaning that it is stupid or wronge or demented. I think that it is a terrible phrase that inteligent people would do well to get out of their vocabulary. I don't mean to be on high moral ground here and say that I am better than others, it's just I loose alot of respect and like for people that I hear use such terms. There is no need for them, especially when there are a plethora of words out there that would better describe what you are trying to say. (listen to me, I sound like my aunt, "That is soo Vulgar!")

I think I need to take this down a notch.

about 2 weeks ago a good friend of mine used the term in my company while he was talking to me. He said something was Gay! and then imediately realized what he had done and backtracked. He said "I didn't mean Gay in the Homosexual way, I just meant gay in the High School, that is stupid way." or something to that effect. I was very sadened by this statement. I mean I truely like this person and have alot of respect for him and in fact talk to him about alot of stuff that I don't confide in alot of people. And that one statement really changed the dynamic of our friendship. I haven't opened up to him since then really and haven't even sought out his companionship outside of work because I lost alot of respect. Is this Offense? I think that some of it is. I mean I wouldn't be holding this much of a grudge if it wasn't. that makes it sound like I am angrier than I am, we are still friends and he is coming skydiving with me and I still have a great time with him. I just don't interact with him the same anymore, nothing tragic, I just wouldn't confide as much anymore.

What is even more funny is that Offense has been a big thing on Campus recently. One community member was almost crucified because of a skit they did at a talent show.

I don't tell my friend about my little issue because I don't want to be seen as someone who takes offense. Because I am really against that thought pattern. But I guess that I am not perfect. now I don't know what to do. talking to him will clear it up but will make it seem like he hurt me far more than he did. Especially now that it is about 2 weeks later.

I guess the key is to forgive.

dlb

Perspective?

2006-08-05T19:20:00.000-07:00

I tend to be an optomistic person. especially about the state of the world and this great country of ours. all of my life I just saw that things will keep getting better because people keep getting smarter. I mean I am not a dooms day kinda person. I don't believe that bullshit about the world is worse now than it has ever been. That is all just fear propoganda mostly brought on by people trying to impose morals on other people. the world has had far worse disease's, wars, death tolls, greed, lack of respect of life, republicans, and hate. History, for those of us willing to look at it, prooves that there has been periodes of our earths history that has been far crazier and deadly and poverty stricken and morally corupt than now. Was that redundant?

NE way...

Like I said I tend to be an optomist, but recently my faith is being shaken. for some reason this war in Iraq and the Marriage Initiative have gotten me worried for my own future, and the state of this country. Hopefully I am just exagerating and this is just an overamplification on my part, but I am not the only person who is talking about this. I kindof feel like this country is back peddiling into Nazi Germany style government. And here are my reasons for feeling this way.

1. We have a government that is out for blood. We are at war with ... who knows. I mean that seriously. We are at war and we don't know what victory looks like. If someone knows what victory for this war looks like then please let me know. But what it feels like to me is that it is just as long as noone makes us mad by not giving us what we want when we want it. And then we say we are doing it for the good of the people.

2. Our government has alot less checks and balances than it used to. We have a party system which is supposed to (ideally) put checks and balances on each other. I feel that if either party gets too heavily in power we are in trouble, and that is what is happening right now. The republicans have all of the power. They control the white house, the Congress, and now the Court system. That to me is a scary thought. Especially since I don't agree with the Republican party 9 times out of 10.

3. The people of this country don't seem to understand what is going on, and what is worse they really don't even care. Too many times have I been talking to someone about the state of this world and someone will tell me that they don't really have time to worry about that, that they have their own problems and then promptly turn on the Television to ignore and wipe their minds clean. I swear to god I have heard someone very close to me utter the phrase, I hate people socially responsible people, they are so annoying, why don't they just go away! (Well... the first part is definately what they said, the second part conveys the feeling of what was said but may not be word for word accurate).

4. Our government, right at this very minute, is changing the laws of our land so that the we the people have less rights than we otherwise would have. While the republicans are so afraid of the government taking away their guns, the government has taken away our freedom of speach. You can no longer speak your mind freely without the government keeping tabs on you if you say something that they don't like. perfect example, Paulo Couelo wrote the book "The Alchemist" which is a very good book. it speaks about destiny and making your way in this world. He is someone who speaks out for peace. Because of his view on the war he was not given a visa to come into the country to speak at an Omega conference. I know that that sounds like a small thing. But it is the First step. and that was 3 years ago. they have gone far beyond that with the wiretapping and the patriot act. NE way I can't keep on this subject for fear I will throw up.

5. Our government right this very minute is discriminating against a minority population outright and without shame. in fact it is trying to write discrimination into the constitution. again I must move on or the vomit thing comes again.

ne way...

I feel like we are sinking into Orwell's 1984. I mean we even have the double speak and everything. If you haven't read that book yet I highly recomend you do it soon. I fear that we might start burning books soon and that one is suspect to go first.

I know that it all sounds doom and gloom. I am going to get my optomism back. But not before remembering what was said about the Germans before the Concentration camps. They didn't believe that it could happen to them in their country, because they thought they were too far evolved.

dlb

Two arrested in Utah public-sex crackdown

2006-08-03T06:11:00.000-07:00

Come one, Come all, to the friendly Utah

Read this story on Planet out! http://www.planetout.com/news/article.html?2006/08/02/2

Police are pledging to crack down on public sex and cruising in city parks after making their first Tonaquint Park lewdness bust in St. George, Utah. A 54-year-old St. George man and a 53-year-old Springville man were arrested Saturday afternoon and charged with lewdness in a public park.
Police Sergeant Craig Harding said officers patrolling the park heard noise coming from the restroom and from outside were able to see one man touch the other in a sexual manner. "Any kid could have been exposed to this kind of activity, which is outrageous," Harding said.

(dlb) which is outrageous I wonder the act or the fact that it is 2 men?

The park purportedly has gained a reputation as a cruising spot for men to hook up.

(dlb) Dang, wish I knew about it before...

"We heard there was possibly some gay stuff going on, and I have my officers patrol that area," Lieutenant Dave Moss said. "If there's people down there trying to hook up, they usually leave and go somewhere else."

Harding said, "We're going to cruise it more. We're going to work it undercover and try to stamp this out."

(dlb) funny that he used the words cruise here, what is his true meaning? Sounds like this cops getting a little side action.

Leland Young, a gay community activist in St. George, said the community does not want people to behave badly in a park, but some fear the police will go beyond cracking down on public sex. "There's been harassment on some levels. They're not going up to the heterosexual community and saying, 'What are you doing in the park?'" Young said.

Police denied targeting people for being gay. "We can't target people. We can't target groups. We can't target cultures,

(dlb) "But by god we wish we could!"

but we can target criminal behavior," Harding said.

(dlb)it's good to hear that the crack addicts are safe on the streets again and that murder is not the number one priority in St. George Utah. The cops have more important things to worry about, like getting those two 50 yr old men out of a park well after all the kids should be in bed! That is where our priority should lie and that is where our hearts truly feel justice needs to be served today! Next Stop, Concentration camps for the Queers! Lets just stick them all in San Francisco where we can watch them from afar, you know, like a zoo.

Well...

On a little more serious note.

Did you hear about the 3 guys that got Gay Bashed after the pride parade in San Diego?

Wow... I live in a bubble here. I mean I feel so safe here at Omega that I can say or do anything the way that I am and act like myself to the fullest. it's kindof scary to realize that there are still hate crimes going on out there. Kindof humbling.

dlb

Permission

2006-07-31T08:25:00.000-07:00


Whose permission would you need to get married to the person you love? WOW!!! Great video! really hits home... dlb

Well ... I don't know what to say ... other than ... what the fuck is wronge with our government!!!

2006-07-25T09:57:00.000-07:00

-Same-sex unions become law in Slovenia

Once again proveing to the world that America is stuck in the Dark Ages when countries like Slovenia, which we are taught are poor angry countries, beat us to the punch.

You would think that being the Richest Nation and also the Most powerful Nation we would have better civil rights laws and be more smart about how we treat our people.

-The measure allowing gay and lesbian couples to register their partnership went into effect Sunday, according to Belgrade's B92 radio station.

-Slovenia's gay and lesbian organizations, while welcoming the move as a concrete step, criticized the law as "insufficient," noting that it limits those attending the ceremonies to two partners and a local community registration official.

Well I guess it's not perfect but it is definately a huge leap in the right direction, especially where USA is concerned.

Read the Full article @ http://www.planetout.com/news/article.html?2006/07/24/6

dlb

P.S. does anyone know why the format for Blogger is different on a Mac rather than a PC, I can't seem to figure out how to add links anymore on my Mac @ work.

Money Really Doesn't Buy Happiness

2006-07-24T06:33:00.000-07:00

On a scale of 1 to 7, where 1 means "not at all satisfied with my life" and 7 means "completely satisfied," the people on Forbes magazine's list of the 400 richest Americans average 5.8—the same as the Inuit people in Greenland and the cattle-herding Masai of Kenya, who live in dung huts with no electricity or running water. Calcutta's slum dwellers score only a little lower, at 4.6.

WOW!!!

pretty crazy huh...

read the whole article by following this link.

http://www.unknowncountry.com/news/?id=4053

dlb

No rest for the wicked!!!

2006-07-18T11:49:00.000-07:00

Well...

once again I think that I am going to get some time off and relax. and that I will be able to only work my regular 40 hour work week and call it a day and go home. but now something aweful has happened. My Boss's mother just had a major heart anurism, and is told she has about 6 weeks to live, but she could go anyday now. She lives in Cape Town South Africa. So he is going to fly out there within the next couple of days and see her with his family. because it is such an expensive thing to do he will definately be gone for about 3 weeks. We have a meeting tomorrow to see what the rest of the managers can do to step up and fill in the gaps. But I guess that means no more relaxing time.

Oh well...

We will see what will happen in the near future.

dlb

The Signs of Burnout!

2006-07-17T05:39:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had one of those days,no wait weeks, nope, maybe months, no... YEARS!

It seems like I can't keep up with myself.

I seem to take on soo much and then can't seem to shed anything off. once I open the gates a little for more responsibility and work it all comes flooding in to drown me in choices that I am making.

How do I still choose to live in my power and still be able to creatively and successfully do everything that is expected of me. and if that is not possible then how do I say no.

You know you are stressed when you only have a peach and juice for dinner and the next morning you can't even eat a small bowl of potatoes and eggs, and even then after only eating half you feel sick to your stomache like you are going to throw up.

I think maybe I am taking things too seriously. I mean I just gave up part of my "day off" to come in and finish a project that I don't even truly believe in. How messed up is that?

Well neway...

this was kindof a downer wasn't it.

I guess that is life...

dlb

The Traila' Trash Life!

2006-07-15T05:33:00.000-07:00

Wow... it is really cool to see your life from different angels.

I just moved locations on campus. I moved from the center of campus in a huge Dorm Room into a larger space, or a Trailer. This is off campus but not far. It is far enough however that I am seperate from the routine that I had before.

I don't live right next to my best friend Catherine. Which sucks and is also good at the same time. It sucks bum bum because I can't just go over and talk to her whenever I want and Bitch or Laugh or Play or Cry with her at all times of the day and night. I have to walk about half a mile to get to her house from mine, and since I tend to be alittle lazy I don't really make that journey. It is good however because I feel Catherine growing distant. She is heavily involved in a Boy that might end up in Marriage. Maybe even this time next year. I think that she is groing distant because we both kindof know that if she does get married then we won't be together near as much as we always were before. And also because she is a very different person when she is with her Boy then when she is with anyone else.

Well neway...

It is time for me to get a life of my own. I feel sometimes, especially of late, that my life is to be there for other people and hear their dramas, and lend a listening ear and comfortable shoulder. Which is fine, except that I tend to let that interfere with having a relationshipof my own. I need a man in the worst way.

Oh yah! Hey there to my Big Bro. who might have just heard of this blog and might read this sometimes. Which is a scary thought because I want to again censor some of the thoughts that I have and post on here, and then again that is the very reason that I should do nothing of the sort.

ok...

Gotogo
ttfn
dlb

P.S. Oh yeah just as a funny...
This was a still frame that was captured during the edit of the video interview of Rod Stryker a Famous Yogi (Not Jeff Stryker the famous Porn Star). My friend was editing the video and paused it to talk to me and this is where it paused. what do you see here?

dlb

New York's Highest Court Set to Rule on Gay Marriages

2006-07-04T12:21:00.000-07:00

In what one legal scholar called a contest between judicial hearts and minds, parsing of legal texts and private sympathies, New York's highest court is expected to rule Wednesday on whether to permit gay and lesbian marriages in the state.

Check out the whole story
This would be the most amazing thing in the world.

especially as I might actually be a resident of New York State now.

dlb

Wow, I've gone a whole month without posting!

2006-07-01T12:03:00.000-07:00

Well June is over...

It was an amazing and an intense month for me.

It started out with a bang by having a 60 hour work week and going near Phillie for a video shoot. then I did a 70 hour work week with Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction. Then I did my Cataloge workshop painting the fantastic while working a 20 hour work week and then went to my family reunion.

dlb

Netflix continued

2006-05-23T10:44:00.000-07:00

ok ok I found the answer.

Netflix is not owned by Walmart, it just made a deal not to sell DVD's and Walmart won't have a subscription website like Netflix.

yeah!!!

dlb

2006-05-18T08:11:00.000-07:00

One more letter to decide weather or not I want to consume from these stores.

I heard that Netflix was owned by Walmart.

That would suck ass as I am a huge Fan of Netflix and a very Huge non fan of Walmart.

I heard a disturbing rumor that I would like clarification on and would request that you add this information to your website. I heard that you were owned by Walmart or that you are partners. I would like to know if you have a parent company? If so who it is, or what is the Netflix story? All of this would be helpful information on your website.

Thank you
dlb

lets see what they say
dlb

A letter to my younger Brother...

2006-05-16T14:07:00.000-07:00

My brother wrote me a letter reguarding sexuality that I responded to in this manner.

I want to give you some sage advise. I want to be able to tell you exactly what it is that you want to hear. I want for you to know what I have learned. I want you to know what I know nothing about. I want for you to know the truth whatever that is.

The truth that I know right now is that there is no answer. Was I born Gay? Was I made Gay by other people? Did something my mother do make me Gay? Was it because she was too nurturing or not nurturing enough? Was it because my Father was distant or too close? Was it because the stars were in the wrong place at the wrong time, or maybe the right place at the right time? And the ever big one, Does God want me to be the way that I am? Did he make me this way? Does God love me the way that I am? Does God love me?

I have been on a Journey for the answers to these questions. I have looked for answers in every major religion, every spiritual teacher that I have found I have searched for these seemingly critical answers. No one is able to answer these questions. No one has been able to satisfy the need for this search. And I don't think that anyone ever will.

I honestly feel that no one has an answer for this. That we won't ever find an answer to this question in this life. I feel that it is something that everyone needs to find for themselves. I can only tell you what I have found for myself and hope that that in some way helps you find these answers for yourself.

I believe that I was born Gay. I have don't know for sure if I was made gay by God or if it was a choice before I came to this earth. I have found clues that I have formed a belief in. I believe in Past Lives. I believe that the first Life that I had on this planet was in the Egyptian times of the Pharoes. I can see images of this life like they are memories from this life itself. In that life I was also Gay. I had a partner that I believe decided to stay with me as a Guide, whom I speak to often now that I have discovered this. I have also seen a Future life progression in which I will also be Gay. This is something that gives me hope. This is something that makes me feel like I am not making up these feelings. Now some people would argue that those are all Halucinations and that my subconcious is making them up to make me feel good about my life. I don't know. But thank god for it if it is, because I needed to feel good about it.

Many people also think that Homosexuality is a relatively new thing. That our society is so perverted that that is the reason that there are Gay people on the earth. These are the same people who think that the problems of today are so much greater than ever in the history of man kind. That we have gone so far down the shit hole that we have to be destroyed sooner or later. So with that in mind I went into history pretty hard to find out the truth. What I have found is that Homosexuality has roots right down into the core of Human Kind. Throughout History Homosexuals have been very prevalent. The Greeks the Romans the Egyptians were mostly all ok with all types of sexualities throughout their History. In fact in some parts of History in some parts of the world it was very in fashion to have a Homosexual partner. You can find Homosexuals in any part of the world and in any time period just as prevelant as we are today. The reason that most of us don't know about it is that the people who write the history books these days tend to be biased by their own beliefs. And this world, especially the West, has been dominated by a very narow view of what is allowed in expresions of love, mostly because of Judaeo/Christian/Islamic Views.

I can get more into both of those subjects if you want but it really is more of a discussion material rather than the material for a letter, or a book, that I am currently writing.

Neway...

Based on my findings through 10 years (since I was 14) of searching, I have come to some conclusions that don't tend to be the Normal Ideas on life and also are pure belief as I have absolutely nothing to back them up but conjecture and prayer.

I believe that I am Gay. I believe that I find the Male form more apealing sexually than the Female one. I believe that I find the Female form sexually apealing sometimes as well, I just find the male form more apealing. I believe that I was born this way. I believe that I am Normal. I believe that God loves and accepts me just the way that I am and it is perfectly normal and part of his all encompasing plan. I believe that we are all not either Gay, Straight, or Bi, but somewhere on a spectrum that isn't even a straight line but in a circular pattern. I believe that we are all evolving to love each other not as Male or Female, Gay or Straight, Masculine or Feminine, but as Human Beings.

These are things that I believe.

I know, however, that because of these beliefs I am happy. Because of these beliefs I feel that my life has purpose and joy. I know that if I base my joy and hapiness off of someone else's belief system that always brings me suffering and sorrow.

I know that I am happy.

Everything else is trivial after that.

Love
dlb

I hope that it helps him.

dlb

Death : The Death Clock to find your Armageddon's Day with Death Test Meter find death date

2006-05-16T13:10:00.000-07:00

Death : The Death Clock to find your Armageddon's Day with Death Test Meter find death date

Find out when you die...

I am going to die on Aug. 19 2071.

Creepy huh!

and at the same time rather comforting to see the end a little more clearly.

dlb

2006-05-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

God! I need to start following Soccer!

dlb

When I was a Kid...

2006-05-08T09:03:00.000-07:00

When I was a Kid, I thought that Smoke Stacks made clouds.

When I was a Kid, I hid in the Tube slide to get out of 3rd grade.

When I was a Kid, I wandered around the playground most of the time never really ploaying with anyone.

When I was a Kid, I loved to Dress up in my mothers clothing and especially her high heels (she had some killer wooden ones from the 60's that would be so hot right now) and dress like "Girls" until my father put a stop to it when I was about 9.

When I was a Kid, I was a perfect little mormon boy that did everything by the letter of the law (except school) and everyone thought I was the cutest little angel... Suckers!

When I was a Kid, I had 2 best friends and we called ourselves the Three Muskateers, even though I had no Idea what that meant. We tended to be bullies to other kids and even threw rocks at one and hit him in the head.

When I was a Kid, I used to be so bored with my friends when they insisted that we played war with their GI Joes, I just wanted to play the game we played the other night when we mooned cars passing by.

When I was a Kid, I made up a game using the Nerf Basketball games in my friends room where if you missed a shot then you got a spanking, if you missed 2 then you got a spanking without pants, if you missed 3 then you got a front spanking. Unfortunately his mom walked in when I was giving the first front spanking and broke things up. That was the most trouble I had ever been in in my life. My mother gave me the silent treatment and my father spanked me so hard and so long that I stopped crying and my mother had to pull him out of the room.

When I was a Kid, I did a paper route on the back of my fathers motorcycle and my mother was driving.

When I was a Kid, My friends and I decided to wade the river in the back of my friends house to kill carp. My friend was convinced that the Mayors wife had told him to do it and we just played along, but none of us could actually kill anything so we just strolled down the stream with big sticks jabbing at things every once in a while to put on a good show of things.

When I was a Kid, I used to eat the little weeds that we called cheesits that looked like little rolls of cheese. I always said that I liked them because everyone else liked them, but I hated them.

When I was a Kid, I loved to sing and often was involved in Solo performances that were in school and also in church.

When I was a Kid, my father was nicknamed the Bear because he worked nights and so we couldn't be loud or he would wake up and get mad and yell at us all, also we covered the windows of his room so it could stay dark during the day so his room looked like a cave.

When I was a Kid, I knew that if I could get my mom to laugh then I wouldn't be in trouble anymore. And one day I wouldn't pick up my toys in the back yard or something equally mundane and worthless to do as a 7 year old that she got mad and I mouthed off. She started in with her routine of "That wasn't called for" and so I shaped my hand into a phone and said ring ring... now it's called for. She laughed and couldn't punish me, but she stopped saying that from then on.

Ne way...

Just thought it was a fun idea to share these types of things on here...

Got the Idea from the Blog Completely Naked

dlb

I have a life?

2006-05-03T16:53:00.000-07:00

Well I am going to a party...

I decided that I have been telling my brothers that I have friends here for so long, and now they are coming out to see Omega, that I better make some friends real quick.

Life is good and I am bringing Mudslides to the party.

sorry for the rush job but ttfn.

dlb

Investment

2006-04-23T06:27:00.000-07:00

the age old question... to invest or not to invest.

what is the answer?

here is some info that I found.

krull and company

I am going to check it out

dlb

Me and my Bro.

2006-04-15T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone... check out my new blog that my brother and I created called Insanity Ensues. So far there is 20 questions and their mates and something about a purple lace bra.

Check it out here

dlb

We know H&M is Socially Responsible but what about Armani Exchange

2006-04-09T14:27:00.000-07:00

Well I didn't see anything on their website about being Socially Responsible but that doesn't mean anything yet.

I wrote this letter to ask

First off I would like to state for the record that I am not a crazy activist. I will not try to ruin the Armani Label based on the information that I recieve here. I just try to be an active socially responsible consumer and want information for myself.

I would just like to know what companies makes your clothing. weather you yourself makes them or if you use another company or companies and what sort of restrictions do you employ for these companies to adhere to. I feel that you make a great product and so I am sure that they are not made in sweat shops, I just need to hear it from you directly. I was hoping that you would have a section on your website devoted to it like H&M http://www.hm.com/corporate/do?action=responsibilityviewhome.

I would apreciate your reply

Thank you
Daniel Bunker

Think it will work?

We will see the results
dlb

H&M · hm.com

2006-04-09T14:15:00.000-07:00

H&M · hm.com

WoW !!!!

This conference we also interviewed John Perkins who wrote the book Confessions of an Economic Hit Man. And he really got my but in gear with the whole socially conscious consumerism thing. I mean I had already stopped shopping at Walmart and I don't do Fast Food anymore but clothing has always been a sticky subject when it comes to consumer consciousness. I had heard that H&M, my favorite store, was Socially responsible, but I didn't know it for sure. Well now I know for sure that it is Social and Conscious. hehe... I can keep shopping there. now lets see if my recent purchase of Armani Exchange Jeans was as conscious. (i feel as if I am spelling conscious wrong, but I don't want to stop using it so sorry).

dlb

Wow... people do read this.

2006-04-09T11:47:00.000-07:00

I just had a discussion about my blog with co-workers of mine. And I was worried for a second that I was talking about things in this that maybe I don't want to have people here to know. I read it over and realized that it's fine. the last post is not too crazy and even if the person I was talking about did read it I don't think that he would mind it too much. It might make things awkward at work with this person but I guess that is what feelings do sometimes, especially conflicting feelings like that. And it isn't like I will ever act on feelings like that. I can't even act on feelings when they are someone right in front of me that definately have the same feelings and are totally ready, how am I going to act when the person is completely in a different space altogether.

Lets put some Cute men on here to get our minds off of this subject.

Did it help? I feel a little better for now.

NE way...

On to different subjects.

here is the recap of my trip into NYC.

I went to Confessions of a Mormon Boy in SoHo, which was amazing! I met two people outside the TKTS stand and they actually are the ones who got it into my mind to goto this and then they were at the resteraunt that I decided to goto while I waited, they invited me over to their table and I accepted, which is something that I never do. But they were nice and the guy was cute so I said what the hell. They were plesant company and it was nice to have someone to speak to for a while. The show was great, it was amazing because it felt like my story, or what it would have been if I had made the same choices that he made. Like going on an LDS mission, getting married to a woman and having kids. It made me very happy that I didn't go through those experiences and chose to get out.

Then we interviewed some amazing people.

Like Wayne Dyer.
I used to think that he was just a really good sales man and that is why he is so famous, but it turns out that he is actually an amazing man. I mean not that making him a good sales man makes him a bad person, but he is both. A great man and a great salesman. Read his stuff if you want to know more. And no, I am not getting paid to advertise for him.

We also got to interview Byron Katie.
Whom I have always kindof had a bad taste in my mouth for. there were some people in my life who once shoved her teachings down my throat, when I was probably living her teachings better than they any day. Not that it was a competition but at the same time it was very tiresome to have someone who is not living their life the way they wanted, telling someone who was living their life the way they wanted, how to live their life. Does that make sense. But I found her to be remarkable. Actually I found her to me Awesome. You know, in the true sense of the word awesome, or something that strikes you with Awe and wonder. I hope that everyone can be in a room with someone like that. I think that she is one of my teachers. if for nothing else than her sheer presence, that is leson enough for one lifetime.

I also got to see a teacher of mine again named Martha Beck.

Whom I have grown to love through her book Expecting Adam and her work in the Joy Diet. Check it out.

What is also funny about Martha Beck is that we are from the same home town, Provo Utah. and she grew up LDS as well. I see a patern here of Provo coming up in my trip. I wonder what it means.

NE way...

This was nice and long which I haven't done in a while.

love ya
dlb

YouTube - break dancing

2006-04-05T14:57:00.000-07:00

Another Break Dancing Video.
I think I might be obsessed
dlb

I'm Back

2006-04-04T20:04:00.000-07:00

Well I made it back from The Big Apple for the Being Fearless Conference. It went very well, it was a big success.

I am very tired from it and so this will be kindof short so I can get some sleep. But I will post more on the conference in a while.

Now that I think about it this might be a waste of post if that is all that I am going to say, but oh well...

ttfn
dlb

2006-03-24T11:30:00.000-07:00

Wow... I am having a hard time today.

I woke up about 3 minutes after I was suposed to be to work today and have had a hard time getting into the swing of things. We are still in conference prep mode which is hard and tiresome. The only thing that keeps me going is that I get to work with my future BF. He is the perfect man for me. Smart, funny, gorgeous, straight. oh wait I think that I am overlooking something... oh no nevermind everything is in order.

Why do I have to always fall for the overtly straight guy on campus. my gaydar is really fucked up. I could get into alot of psyche bullshit like I am afraid of getting into a relationship so I fall for people that are completely unavailable. But I am happy with dreaming so will stay blissfully ignorant to that blindingly real fact.

dlb

Shattered Dreams and diminished hopes

2006-03-23T16:06:00.000-07:00

Can you believe this Kirk Cameron is now a TV Evangelist.

All my dreams of having his babies are gone.

I will never think of him the same way again.

dlb

I'm Broke!!!

2006-03-21T10:44:00.000-07:00

Luckily I am safely at Omega where I don't need to buy my own food or pay rent anymore.

I don't get paid until right before the conference which stinks. But then I can spend all my first paycheck in the city, rather than save it or anything smart like that.

NE way

Like I said, I am at Omega again, so I don't know how easy it is going to be for me to write in this. I get so caught up in the life here that I forget about everything else unless it is right in my face. and Internet activity tends to be an out of site out of mind type of deal. As my family and friends will confirm, I kindof fall off the face of the earth. I am going to put it on my calendar to keep this up, especially since I have found that I might have a regular reader or two.

But warning, it's hard to keep it up when it is hard to get online. I have to go all the way to the Cafe', oh woe is me.

ne way...

I also am trying to decide what catalog course to take. I need to decide soon so I can get my first choice but now I have the hard task of dancing the scheduling dance. I don't know when my family is coming to town, or if they are coming to town, they say they are and then don't often. and also my brother is going to go on an LDS mission and so I want to go home for his farewell which I don't know when that is happening. So now the decision. do I go for what I want and pray that both of those events happen around it so I can get my first choice in class, or do I wait and let those events control my choices like previous years and not get the course that I most want.

ne way...

I better go back from lunch...

dlb

Wow !!! I just learned that I have a reader.

2006-03-18T08:49:00.000-07:00

Well I am here @ Omega Land again. And surprise surprise I actually have a reader. Someone here that I know and love dearly actually reads this thing and said that she was disapointed that I stoped writing in it.

Well I gues that means that I will have to keep on trudging along with it. hehe... I mean it kindof is a hassle here @ Omega Land because I have to come to the Cafe' for internet access. I tried the, write it in word and then transfer when I have internet access last year, and that lasted all of about 2 weeks. So I might have to make this a once a week thing and see how I do. I will put it in my callander on my computer and hopefully I will have enough reminder for that.

Last night we were talking about some of our goals for this season. I actually started the conversation, but came up very lacking when it was time to list the goals, luckily the question never got back around to me.

So now I think that I need to start thinking about some good goals for this year.

So far this is what I have come up with...

1. Be more social, go to events and stop going to bed after 10pm because that is when all the real fun stuff happens.
2. Do Yoga 3 times a week.
3. Leave Work at work. Learn how to stop complaining when at home about work, because it feels that I spend too much time doing that and then I am still "working".
4. Be more open to the possibility to love in my future. I know that this one is vague, but last time I said that I wanted a BF and that went right down the toilet.
5. Get back involved in comunity events so that I feel that I am growing again, like the classes for staff and the such.
6. Keep in touch with everyone not at Omega. I suck at this one and so I would like to at least give an e-mail a week

ne way...

I will keep this updated and add more as I think of them.

It is always a little risky putting these up here because other people then feel like they can keep me to my goals, which then makes me less likely to want to do them because I am not doing them for anyone else I am doing them for me.

ne way...
it's Saturday and my day off so I want to get away from this and go play.

dlb

Open Letter - Intelligent Design

2006-03-08T12:14:00.000-07:00

Open Letter - Intelligent Design

this is truely funny. everyone should read this. it is really scientific as well.

well... they have charts and graphs which must mean they are scientific.

dlb

Censorship sucks!!!

2006-02-28T14:59:00.000-07:00

Viva Las ...

2006-02-22T04:33:00.000-07:00

Well I am back from the Vegas Vacation.

It was uneventful and yet fun.

We went down to Hurricane Utah to stay in my friends home there and swam in their heated pool, then went for the day on Saturday to the strip and stayed for a while. Life was good. We went to Hooters for lunch, this was pretty much lost on me, the waitresses were pretty but nothing special, the food was poor and the wait was 45 min. but I am glad for the expierience.

NE way...

The overall highlight was Zumanity.
This is an amazing show...

Go see this today if you haven't yet.

dlb

Im Diana Troy... but look at #2 Jean Luke Picard

2006-02-16T16:20:00.000-07:00

Your results:
You are Deanna Troi

Deanna Troi		65%
Jean-Luc Picard		55%
Beverly Crusher		55%
Spock		52%
Geordi LaForge		50%
Uhura		45%
An Expendable Character (Redshirt)		45%
Mr. Scott		40%
Chekov		40%
Mr. Sulu		40%
Worf		35%
James T. Kirk (Captain)		30%
Will Riker		30%
Data		27%
Leonard McCoy (Bones)		25%

You are a caring and loving individual.
You understand people's emotions and
you are able to comfort and counsel them.

Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Quiz

I'm Superman... hehe!!!

2006-02-16T16:09:00.000-07:00

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman		70%
Iron Man		65%
Supergirl		63%
Green Lantern		60%
Catwoman		60%
Spider-Man		55%
The Flash		55%
Hulk		45%
Wonder Woman		43%
Robin		43%
Batman		35%

You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test

This man probably wants to have my babies...

2006-02-15T23:51:00.000-07:00

Just thought you would want to know
dlb

Maybe it ought to be Movement Tuesday.

2006-02-14T14:38:00.000-07:00

This is something I probably will be able to do in the near future.

Watch for it...

dlb

Happy V-Day!!!!

2006-02-14T10:16:00.000-07:00

Well here it is...

I don't really get all of the fuss but I do think that it is cute that we have a day to say I love you to someone special.

For some reason I have never remembered V-Day until it was right upon me. Maybe because I have never had a special someone to shower with gifts on this day... Neway... Happy V-Day
dlb

The Onion Strikes Again !!!

2006-02-13T14:36:00.000-07:00

I know that I kindof Cheat by putting these other peoples articles on here but who cares, as long as I am giving Credit where credit is due then I don't have to be original.

Fellow Dormmates Warned About Christian in 462

Check it out.
dlb

I love the Olympics!!!

2006-02-13T14:21:00.000-07:00

I HATE the Olympic Broadcasters.

I am sooo sick of the Broadcasters and their Stupidity. I mean are they that dense that the Athletes are doing a great job of avoiding them and then when they are tracked down they do such a wonderful job of Dodging stupid Questions? It's time to get a clue.

And I am sick of people saying that Michelle Kwan isn't the Best because she never recieved Olympic Gold. She is probably the Best Skater that the United States has ever produced and Damn them for Downplaying that.

NE way

I just had to vent that for a second.

The Olympics are the only Sporting event that I get involved in. other than this I stay away.

dlb

More thoughts on Being Gay

2006-02-12T12:21:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking alot about this recently.

As I have stated earlier, I don't like to label myself as GAY. I mean I am Oriented in the Same Gender loving direction and all, I just don't like the Label because I think that there is more to me than just that... I know Blah Blah Blah... that is what all the gay boys are saying. But with me I think that it is true. I mean just based on the reactions that I get from people when I come out to them range from the "Duh! you didn't even need to tell me about that, I already knew." to the "Oh My God! I can't believe that your gay. I mean you act so straight, all this time I thought you were straight." So while I think that it is a part of me like my toe, it isn't all of me.

But lately I have been realizing that it is a much bigger part of my life than I ever give it credit.

For Example, I like Netflix alot. I like to get TV shows from Netflix. And the shows I get are... Will and Grace, Six Feet under, Sex and the City, Desperate Housewives. While they aren't all "Gay" shows they definately are known for their Gay Fan Base. But on the other hand I do like to watch all sorts of movies from Netflix ranging from Margaret Cho and Trick on one hand to Murderball and The Godfather on the other hand.

Example #2, I read the newspaper fairly frequently, and for some reason, in a Red state, I seem to read about Gay issues more often than not. I mean i definatley read about the war and local issues and such, but it seems that even the Local newspapers (you've heard me talk about the SL Trib.) seem to be talking about Gay rights and Gay issues a ton. Is that happening everywhere? I mean I know it is an Election year and so they like to throw in the Gay Bills to get votes one way or another, but this is alot.

Example #3, I seem to surround myself with Gay friendly people it seems. My co-workers have no problem asking my opinion and telling me theirs on Gay issues. Even though they are all LDS and conservative to a certain degree. They are all accepting of my Orientation. My Friends are mostly straight but all have no problem with me or my way of life, (at least to my face with some of them).

So the Moral is ... Gay people are on the rise, or, mr dlb is in a bubble thicker than George W. Bush. You Decide

dlb

Ch... Ch... Ch... Changes!

2006-02-12T12:16:00.000-07:00

In the Ever ongoing Saga to try and make this website better, I have made more changes. but for somereason they aren't showing up on the actual site even though they are in the template and Saved and Published. I have 2 theories for this. 1. It is just taking a little while for Blogger to get to it, and make it look pretty. or 2. there is someone on my site and so that makes it not able to change it until they are gone. I don't know what the problem truly is but those are my theories.

Today I am having another lazy sunday and am loving every minute of it. I just went through and cleaned up my Blog Roll. Which should be showing up on my website anytime now. I decided that I didn't read about half of the ones that I have links to and so zi might as well get rid of them. Sorry to those who got the Ax. I say that as if they will efver know. but oh well.
dlb

Thoughts from my brain

2006-02-08T14:16:00.000-07:00

I just watched Margeret Cho's Assasin.

Oh My GOD!!!

I love her...

Cho Cho Pants, as she was lovingly deemed @ Omega is by far one of the funniest people on the planet.

WATCH IT!!

Ne way...

Her Opener was named Bruce. I think that you are garunteed to have a Gay son if you name him Bruce, I don't know why but it seems that everyone I know named Bruce is Gay. But NE way... he was talking about those people who watch Will and Grace and then support Bills to ban Gay marriage. He was talking about how he wants them all to just fuck off. and I understand the sentiment. I mean I live and work among alot of people who would vote one way about these issues and then say something completely different to your face.

I understand the sentiment, I mean it really sucks to hear that type of hypocricy. (Gosh i need to learn to spell) But I wonder if that is really the type of sentiment that we want.

I mean I have a friend who is still in High School in Utah. She doesn't have the most wide variety of experience to broaden her horizons, and so I think that she is very naieve. But I also remember thinking the same things when I was her age. I was still in the closet and so I would have a completely differnet oppinion to your face than what I would say to myself.

NE way...

I have to actually Work now so I gotogo...

If I remember I will write more on this subject.

dlb

P.S. Cho Cho Pants has a Blog so read This.
dlb

WOW!!!

2006-02-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

Has BYU prof found AIDS cure?

Researchers, including a BYU scientist, believe they have found a new compound that could finally kill the HIV/AIDS virus, not just slow it down as current treatments do.

And, unlike the expensive, drug cocktails 25 years of research have produced for those with the deadly virus, the compound invented by Paul D. Savage of Brigham Young University appears to hunt down and kill HIV.

...

In addition to being a potential checkmate to HIV, the compounds show indications of being just as effective against other diseases plaguing humankind - among them influenza, possibly even the dread bird flu, along with smallpox and herpes.

OH MY GOD!!!

This is really exciting.

I mean I know that sometimes these things don't really pan out and early testing doesn't prove to be truth or even as efective as they thought, BUT WOW!!!

This is truely exciting...

dlb

Wow... that sucks

2006-02-04T19:30:00.000-07:00

Well I missed my 100th post.

I was going to do something special for it but I missed it. so happy 102nd post... or is the 103?

NE way...

So I was all set to be going to the wonderful ball that is happening right now as I write in this blog, but I couldn't get a tux in time... I realize that I should own a tux, but I am a really poor boy. ne way...

just wanted to say happy 100th and it's windy
dlb

So this is how we stop war

2006-02-03T14:20:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!! I might get to be an operative!

2006-02-03T12:53:00.000-07:00

Mission Possible
I was just psudo invited to the Mission Possible event and they might be renting me a Tux. I am so excited I could spit... but I won't because that would be repulsive. And I think actually a sin in some states.

oohhh I just found out Katherine Heigl will be there... you know from Roswell.. and Gray's Anatomy, although I haven't seen any of Gray's Anatomy. But I just started watching roswell again on DVD. How funny is that.

I hope that I can go...
dlb

why doesn't it look the same?

2006-02-02T21:59:00.000-07:00

I can't figure out why my posts look different on different computers. in fact my whole blog looks different on my laptop as compared to my Work Computer. So if the pictures in my last post look a little screwy then I am sorry.

Well I am watching Roswell tonight. And it is funny how I am finally realizing why I related so much to that show. They have a secret, they are aliens. I had a secret, I am gay. They were worried about who to tell and who knows becasue they are worried that they will be killed, I was worried about who to tell for fear that my life would be destroyed.

Maybe that is why so many gay men liked comic books so much.

NE way ... enough philosophy...ing

ne way...

Life is looking pretty good right now. I just bought tickets to Zumanity and I am sooo excited.

Ne way...

Valentines day is coming up. I need to get over my silly little inhibitions and get out there when it comes to love. I always use my nomadic lifestyle to be the excuse as to why I don't put myself out there and get dates. Like now. I say that timing is bad right now because I am leaving Utah in a month. but if that is true then why didn't I go out 2 months ago.

ne way...

I am going to go away now
dlb

I want to go...

2006-02-02T11:02:00.000-07:00

The Kidney Foundation is planning this big Black tie event that will be happening this weekend. I want to go sooo bad. but I don't get to, that is one of the reasons I was hired is to be the "hold down the fort" person for their meetings and their planning for this event. Which is a nice role to be playing and I think that it is an honor that they trust that I can be here alone while they are all gone. But I still want to go. it sounds so glam. I mean they have a bowl of Cubit Zarconia's (is that how you spell it) With on real 4 Karat Diamond that everyone gets to reach in and grab one and if they get the diamond they get to keep it. they are auctioning off a Harley Davidson, and they are having a beautiful event and I want to go...

Oh well...

On to different topics.

So I am crazy.

I know that you all think that you know that but you don't really know the full extent of my insanity. This time it has to do with money. Yesterday I just flopped down around $50 on food for myself and to cover tip for my friend who is a cheap skate. I didn't even bat an eye to the expense of it. and if it were $100 dollars I would have still not cared at all. But when we went to a store and saw that Princess Bride was on Sale for $10 I debated as to weather or not I had the money to buy it. Of course I do damn it. I have the money to spend $100 dollars on food for myself and everyone else but not $10 dollars on a movie? I am crazy.

But I did buy it.

Yeah!!!

Also I borrowed Roswell the TV series from my friend.

Who has a Crush on Jason Behr? I have a Crush on Jason Behr.

He is ssoo lickable.

Just Look.

Don't you just want to hold him and tell him everything is going to be alright baby, soon we will be on the Home Ship where we can be ourselves and love forever...

And what is up with these pics...

Hot huh?

gotta love it...
dlb

OSCAR.com - 78th Annual Academy Awards - Nominee List

2006-02-01T11:36:00.000-07:00

OSCAR.com - 78th Annual Academy Awards - Nominee List

I am sooo excited for this years acadamy awards. I think that this will put a big stick in the Right wings side. (not that I am keeping score or have anything against them... but neiner neiner neiner)

Look at all the Gay oriented or LGBT oriented films that are nominated.

Of course the big one and one of my favorites. Brokeback
Mountain. Then the ever brillian Philip Seymore Hoffman for Capote, then Transamerica.

You'll watch us America but you won't give us rights? huh!

You know I heard a really funny thing the other day... I heard that the Demographic that watches Brokeback Mountain and Queer as Folk, aren't what we would expect. I would expect Gay men. But it actually is Straight women in their Middle years. Weird huh. Also how strange that that is exactly the demographic that I get along with the absolute most. Middle aged women love me. Coincidence?

dlb

Easy Button any one?

2006-01-31T14:21:00.000-07:00

I wish that I have an Easy button for this webdesign stuff. I mean I am using Blogger and so that makes things pretty easy but I don't really think that I am doing things the easy way.

Like making those graphics get on the web and making them look good ... I had to create another blog that I call test blog and upload them onto there then save the address so that I can put them here on this site.

NE way...

Like the new header? it's a little less 80's than the red one.

I like it better although my original plan was better, I wanted it to span the length of the page.

oh well...

That will just have to wait until I can figure out how to mess with the formating of the columns and margins and all that fun stuff.

until then hopefully this will work.
dlb

I have a headache

2006-01-30T16:10:00.000-07:00

Well this weekend kindof felt like a bust. I had so many plans for what I was going to do, and get all of my stuff finished. But, surprise surprise, it all fell throught the cracks.

Well I got my laundry done so that is good.

Ne way...

I have a headache so this is going to be a short one.

In fact. that Is all I have to say.
dlb

So that's why I am single

2006-01-27T09:34:00.000-07:00

I am waiting for him...

No... It's not Alyssa Milano when she started on Who's the Boss, it's Noah Hathaway from The Never Ending Story. My Brother brought a blast from the past last night when he suggested that we watch this movie again. I still love it, and he is still hot hot hot. (does that make me a pedophile, or is it ok to think that he is hot if you thought he was hot back then, especially since we are not that far in age?)

But look at him now... WOW!!!!

Now that is one hunk of a man. I got this Picture from Noah's Clubhouse. Too bad he is Married and "Straight", but just how straight can he be, I mean he didn't even bat an eye at the Child like Empress... A girl I would switch for...

dlb

Japan?

2006-01-26T15:58:00.000-07:00

Looking at the Cluster map makes me happy.

I know that I view my own website 10 times as much as the lot of anyone else does. That is fine with me, although I think it might show something of a narcissistic quality that I don't know what to think about.

But the Cluster Map shows that people all over the world are looking at my website. Now they may be taking a quick glance and running for something a little more polished, But I like to delude myself into thinking that they actually came here to read my words.

Odd huh!

Well NE way...

I hope to one day have 100 page visits a day. I don't know what that will change other than the fact that I would feel more pressure to post. But it sounds so romantic. I think that is the Leo in me, just wanting to have a spotlight on me. Maybe that is why I started this Blog. I mean I pretended at the very beginning to want it to be a Web Journal and if people read it then so be it. But really... I just want to be adored by all who are in my presence and with this site I can expand my presence. (Also I can edit out my bitchiness in this blog).

well neway...

I figure I would ask for people to comment on their whereabouts and what brings them to the many places that they are living or visiting, because it would be cool.

And if no one comments I will just delude myself more and say that they were just astounded by my words and were speechless, rather than scared and wanting to run.

dlb

Putting Belief into practice

2006-01-25T09:54:00.000-07:00

I believe that we create our own reality. and if we aren't getting what we want we actually don't really want that or we are not asking for it correctly.

Well damn it... I am putting that belief into practice.

I am currently in "Negotiations" with my Job @ Omega. ooohhh... that makes it sound so important and adult. But it is crazy because I have never done this before. I mean I have always been fine with the amount of money that has been offered to me. and I have just gone with the flow, not that the flow has been bad to me, it's just that I have never really cared about how much money I make, as long as I have my needs met and my greatest wants met. but the funny thing is my needs and wants have changed. So drastically in fact that I feel I really must make a change in the Flow. I made the mistake of getting on a website, payscale.com that told me how much the going rate is for people like me in this buisness. Not Good! I am drastically underpaid. Which I guess is par for course with the company that I work for and that is part of the charm of working there, but this was ridiculous. I mean I couldn't even make it slightly better by putting in my Room and Board as compensation. I am not even making half of the bottom of the rung. So that I am making a change. And it seems to be working beautifully. I mean... I don't know the final outcome, but my boss is going to bat for me with the higher ups to get me what I want. Yeah!!! Even then I won't be getting near what I would in the "real" world. (Aparently Omega is removed from the real world) But even so it is a start in asking for what I want and who knows maybe in the near future I might be able to ask for a "real" job that will get me the salary and benefiets that I have earned.

dlb

Energy Saving Tips

2006-01-24T13:11:00.000-07:00

I said that I am going to put on here some energy saving tips so here is the first.

Goto this website, to see some things that you can do to save electricity and save you money.

look for their free pdf printable checklist Hopefully this works.

NE way...

At least I can do some of the things on this checklist now. It stinks because my building Manager is the one that controls the heat for the entire apartment building. and while it is cool that I don't have to pay for it because of that reason I also think that it stinks because we waste so much heat because everyone's body temperature is different and they obviously like it hot. so we open windows to cool things down, especially at night. and we have all of the vents in the house closed.

Well... we do what we can.
dlb

Utah is Schizo

2006-01-23T13:31:00.000-07:00

Right now I am soo confused as to where Utah polotics are heading. I mean it seems like there is just so much going on these days. I was just reading the Salt Lake Tribune's Sunday Paper today and everyother article was about Gay rights. and it seems like everyother article is on opposite sides of the line. Right now Sen. Buttars of West Jordan is calling on the senate to pass his bill that will make Teachers put equal class time with Evolution and Inteligent Design (which is that a higher power created everything from scratch, as I understand it). Because he says that Scientists are still in Debate over this. Well that's funny because every scientist that I have heard weigh in on the subject has stated that they are all pretty much in agreement that Evolution is true. He is also a Homophobe stating that "they're everywhere. (speaking of Homosexuals) They're getting into everything. The Homosexual Community is going to undermine society." WOW!!! what a joke. I can't believe that this Neanderthal still exists. This cartoon shows this view pretty well.
I find this even more funny because it comes right after the great statements made by Mayor Rockey Andersen. What a crazy state I live in.

I guess however it does reflect the views of the nation, I mean the nation is basically cut in two halves when it comes to polotics.

My friend and I were joking around about how we should split the country into two different countries. I don't know if that would really even work but it was fun to dream for a second.
dlb

Today I am gay!

2006-01-22T17:47:00.000-07:00

so I try not to label myself as gay. I don't think that it should be that big of a deal that I need to make it my identity. Yes I am gay, and I see no shame in that as I've said on previous posts I am 99 - 98% out. I just don't see it as all that I am and so therefore not willing to make a big deal of it.

Today however I feel that I have passed through a coming of age ritual for gay men. I just spent a sunday with a pint of ice cream (Vanilla, not my first choice but definate goodness to be had) watching the first disc to Desperate housewives (love it!!). I also tried to bake a loaf of bread and clean the house.

Isn't that some sort of coming of age test for Gay men? Am I a Man?

Well anyway... the Bread didn't come out so well (I forgot the yeast until it was too late so it wouldn't rise and had to be sacrificed, don't worry however it seemed happily engaged with something in the garbage and didn't want to be interupted when I took out the trash)

But other than that I think that I did what most straight men are unable or unwilling to do, I don't mean to stereotype, it's just been my expirience.

We are also entertaining tonight. My friend and his new bride are coming over for dinner. I am a little nervous because I am not involved in this dinner party much and so don't know how much I am expected to perform. It also makes me kindof nervous that these friends don't know that I am gay. Not again that I am embarassed, it's just I don't know if It will dominate the party, ruin the party, or what will happen. They just got married and I have never met his wife, and so I think that on our first meeting I drop that bomb. Could get a little messy. Am I being a pussy? Oh well, I don't care.

NE way...

I kindof like living like this. I like to cook for people. it's fun. I don't like to do it every day, but it is fun for a while.
dlb

Sony launches gay music label. 11/01/2006. ABC News Online

2006-01-22T12:20:00.000-07:00

Sony launches gay music label. 11/01/2006. ABC News Online

I can't tell if this is a good idea or a bad one. I mean I think that it is great if alot of gay artists get recognized for their work and I think that it is a great way for them to get started I just don't know if it is good for the whole integration of Gay people into the mainstream. and maybe that wouldn't be a good idea. but who knows.
ne way
dlb

Damn...

2006-01-20T16:52:00.000-07:00

Damn...
(because I like to swear twice sometimes)

I lost a post on here somehow.

it's gone... it just vanished... and guess what it was called, Things I need to remember.

Damn...

Now I forgot to remember what I needed to remember. Silly Blog.

Well ne way... Do you like the changes? they are coming along just as I hope my Hits will come along as well. I guess that I should say something in here other than that my blog is changing so you have something to come back to.

Get rich quick schemes suck! I don't know why but most people think that I need to be rich. I don't know why, I am in no hurry yet. that is why I took all of the ads on my website off. I don't need to be making a fraction of a cent for someone to click on my website. And I don't need to make 100 dollars a week just by getting my family and friends into some sleezy multilevel scheme that never really works for me. Why doesn't it work for me you might wonder? Because I don't care. I don't want to make a million dollars at the sacrifice of my time and Joy. I make money for one reason, to have the life that I want. that is all. I don't need a big bank account or an expensive car, all I want is to live MY life. And right now the way that I want to live my life happens to be moving cross country 2 times a year to change. thats it... I think that I may be addicted to change. But there it is. No where in that lifestyle does it require me to make more money than I already make. Now... if i were to get married and have kids then maybe my lifestyle would need to change and I feel that I am prepared to make those changes quickly and sufficiently to whatever life throws at me. My phylosophy is that money comes to me as needed, and as I greatly want.

oops... it's 5pm, gotogo
more on this when I get home
dlb

He he he he... look ... I did it!!!

2006-01-19T13:55:00.000-07:00

well I have finally done it. I have learned how to create Headers and footers for my website and how to make them link to things (the footer links back to this page so you don't have to scroll all the way back up.

Fun huh!

the more I play the more I learn. and this website stuff isn't so hard after all. it's just intimidating.

ne way

hope you like the changes and give me comments on what you don't like and like and I can tell you to shove it in your ear or else make the suggested changes.
dlb
p.s. what is holding up the hats? (hehe... boners are funny)

My Headers and Footers... (I made them myself)

2006-01-19T13:03:00.000-07:00

Another Review

2006-01-19T12:16:00.000-07:00

The Day the Earth Stood Still.

This is a Good Movie.
Old... and therefore somewhat cliche' and cheesy but very good. I am very impressed with it.

This is where the Post for Platu, Verada, Nictu came from. They say those words to stop a Giant Humaniod Robot from attacking them. I felt that it was good to have those words on my site just in case...

NE way...

you should be seeing some changes to my site coming up here shortly. I am learning about the HTML stuff and FTP stuff and have made new headers and things like that for my site that I am just working out the kinks to putting them on this site.

NE way

love and light
dlb

It's a comercial but it's really trippy

2006-01-18T15:30:00.000-07:00

Cool Videos > Underground
Check it out
dlb

Some things on my mind.

2006-01-18T11:20:00.000-07:00

I am what is wrong with the world.

If you read this and see yourself in this situation too then I hope you do something to change as well.

I sat here for a minute getting a little mad at my co-worker because I thought that he was the problem. But it turns out that I am just as much to blame as him.

I see a problem with the worlds dependancy on oil. I see a problem with MY dependency on oil, and as of yet I have done very little to solve this problem or even to do my part. I can front and tell you that I don't own a vehicle so that I don't use Gasoline, but I get a ride to and from work every day from my brother and his truck. I can say that I use less plastic because I use a Mug for my water and drinks and reuse it, but I use products from the store that use far too much packaging and throw away so much stuff that it is ridiculous.

I don't want to be too hard on myself because there is always the reason that being 100% green is very costly. But then I have to be real. I don't put the demand on the companies that is necesary to make the supply cheaper. I haven't written the Car manufacturers to ask them to give us better fuel economy cars and fuel alternative cars. I also haven't stopped buying food items that have excessive packaging.

Well there you go... I am the reason that the enviroment is collapsing. I can't blame big buisness, I can't blame the Government, and I can't blame my co-worker who has a different opinion than me. I believe strongly in the let he who is without sin cast the first stone. I am not without sin.

So what am I going to do about it.

I am going to e-mail Greenpeace and ask them for tips on how to make my home Green. If they can't then I am going to do the research myself. I will then share my findings with you all here. I know that only like 12 people read this and then maybe not even on a regular basis, but it makes me feel better to share what I learn. Then I am going to do alot of research on Fuel efficient cars and the like, and what I can do to help.

NE way

that was on my mind.

speaking of activism...

Have you heard of Mayor Rocky Andersen. He is the Mayor for Salt Lake City Utah. He has never been my mayor as I have never lived in Salt Lake City, but he is one of the biggest draws for me to that city. It seems like everytime I am in Utah I hear of some of the great things that he has been doing and I love it. Like for example right now he is standing for Gay Rights. Read this article on the Salt Lake Tribune.

Ok so I have to paste this direct quote from his State of the State Address becasue he is sooo cool...

One group that has been consistently marginalized in our city, as in
much of the rest of the world, is the gay and lesbian community. Hateful
prejudice, generated by a lack of acquaintance, understanding, and
consequent fear, has rendered gays and lesbians second-class citizens in
many respects. Many people appear to think that the innate sexual
orientation of gays and lesbians should preclude them from full participation
in social and political life. Society's treatment of gays and lesbians has made
life tragically difficult and painful for them, and has too often deprived our
community of the valuable perspectives and resources they offer.

So he has become a Hero of mine today... yeah!

NE way...

These are things that were on my mind.

dlb

BYU is funny cause ...

2006-01-17T14:54:00.000-07:00

BYU is crazy
I just went to their annual Martin Luther King Jr. Day Festivities Yesterday and I felt that it was kindof a joke. I mean I had fun don't get me wrong. But that fun had nothing to do with their events.

first of all they said on the Website that the March was supposed to start @ 5:30pm. Great I will be there. Not so however. The march actually started somewhere around 6pm - 6:15pm. (BYU has a punctuality problem) then when it was finished they had a program that lasted around an hour and a half and they really needed someone Gay there to give them some help. Ok that is unfair but they really needed some help. They need to learn that they should practice before performing anything. The Choir was awful, again, Practice. The people giving the intro for the speakers were awful, again, PRACTICE! I mean I don't know if I can take someone getting up and fumbling the words on Martin Luther King Jr.s Biography and then say oh yeah and he did some other stuff... WHAT? And the sad thing is that he was the President of the Black Student Union.

NE way...

Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day!
or as they like to call it in Utah Civil Rights Day!
dlb

My people are winners... YEAH!

2006-01-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

I have to give a shout out to my people. I mean they are the people who if they are in a movie then I must go and see said movie or get it on my Netflix Que imediately. Even if I don't think that the movie is particularly interesting then I still go see it to support my people.

Philip Seymore Hoffman is definately one of my people. He is such an amazing character Actor. He just adds such an amazing element to every movie that he has ever been in and to recieve Best Actor is amazing for him. I can't wait to see Capote (I know it has been out for almost 3 months and I haven't seen it yet but I will)

Sir Anthony Hopkins is definately one of my people. Congrats on the Cecil B. Demile Award.

You probably saw him in Bend it Like Beckham, and if you didn't then shame on you, you should see it imediately. I don't have Television so I can't watch Elvis with him in it. But I probably wouldn't watch it even if I did, (he isn't my person quite yet, he is just gorgeous)

Ok.. Ok.. he didn't win any awards, but he is sooo pretty. What would the world be like withour Jonny Depp.

Pretend there is an Image of Reese Witherspoon here (I can't seem to get hers to work)

Reese Witherspoon is soso pretty. And she really deserves this award. Love her.

And Ang Lee wins for Brokeback Mountain for Best Picture and Best Director... Yeah!
dlb

Ok... so people are looking at my site now... I have no Idea how they found it.

2006-01-16T11:33:00.000-07:00

So this is fun...
I saw this on a blog I just recently got involved with (it sounds like an affair)

what does your Song list say about you.

Here is the top ten most played songs on my Windows Media Player.

Blackbird The Beatles
Human Behavior Bjork
Presure David Bowie
The Shining Badly Drawn Boy
Uninvited Alanis Morrisette
I Will Survive Gloria Gaynor
ColorBlind Counting Crows
Beautiful Christina Aguilera
Keep Ya Head Up 2pac
Bittersweet Symphony The Verve ? (Is that who sang this? Damn Pirated music)

Some surprising results, I didn't expect to see 2pac up there. A little embarassed about the Christina Aguilera, but then again I really like that song. Gloria Gaynor... wow!!

No Indie music that no one has ever heard of, but I guess that is par for course since I am pretty much a trendy guy. Well... it's not that I am totally trendy, its' just that I am so eclectic, especially in music, that I can never dig too deep to get some of that music that no one has heard of. It usually is what is most played that I hear and start to like.

Well there you have it.

So leave me a comment of your most played music list, it could be fun, oh you 43 people who have come to my site recently.
dlb

You have got to see this

2006-01-15T01:53:00.000-07:00

Positive Liberty » Blog Archive » About That Movie…

2006-01-14T01:52:00.000-07:00

Positive Liberty » Blog Archive » About That Movie…

I am not sure which link will work, but I think that everyone should read this article who has already watched or will be watching soon the film Brokeback Mountain.

Click here to read the article
dlb

I like to think...

2006-01-14T00:44:00.000-07:00

I like to think that I am learning about this blogging buisness. I mean, I am learning HTML for heavens sake. Well... ok I am actually learning how to cut and paste the HTML and recognize what does what, which is much more useful to me than learning the whole language.

I have learned how to put ads on my blog. How to put pictures on my blog. How to put links on my blog.

And now how to take Ads off. I don't like them. I used to think that they made the blog look profesional and neat, but now I see that they just make it look dumpy and comercial. I want more of a personal feel and comfortable. So I will try without the Ads.

Also I am playing around with the title. and the description. I don't really like it yet, it isn't catchy. I feel that if I were to go to this blog for the first time and see this it wouldn't catch my eye.

NE way

Check back for updates and always feel free to give me your opinion.
dlb

The Myth of the Midlife Crisis

2006-01-13T16:29:00.000-07:00

It's time we stopped dismissing middle age as the beginning of the end. Research suggests that at 40, the brain's best years are still ahead.

Check it out...

Age means nothing anymore.

Our Average life span is like 75-80 years... what it seems to me is that this number is based on what people's age is that they are dying now. Those of us who are 40 and below have advantages that they never had and our bodies are used to those advantages, so I think who know how long we will live.

dlb

Forbes’ highest-paid young celebrities

2006-01-13T09:55:00.000-07:00

Celebrity Age Profession 2005 paycheck
Amanda Bynes 19 Actor $1.9 million
Hilary Duff 18 Actor/singer $15 million
Paris Hilton 24 Personality $6.5 million
LeBron James 21 Athlete $22.5 million
Adriana Lima 24 Model $4.5 million
Lindsay Lohan 19 Actor/singer $11 million
Frankie Muniz 20 Actor $8 million
Mary-Kate & Ashley Olsen 19 Actresses $21 million
Maria Sharapova 18 Athlete $18.2 million
Ashlee Simpson 21 Singer/actress $5.3 million
Serena Williams 24 Athlete $12.7 million

I find this funny... I want to be one of the richest people under 25 for being a "personality".

This is what I call a Penis Celebrity, someone who is only famous because of the Penis that they are connected to, like Paris Hilton who is only famous because of her Father. Lisa Marie Prestley who is only famous because of her Father. etc...

I wonder if there are any Vagina Celebrities out there, I am sure there are i just can't think of any right now.
dlb

Remember these words...

2006-01-12T20:39:00.000-07:00

Platu Verada Nictu

dlb

I look like an European Gigilo / Pirate Today

2006-01-12T09:33:00.000-07:00

I am officially at the bottom of my Laundry Barrel.

I am wearing pinstripe linen pants with a maroon button up shirt, that I borrowed from my brother. I feel like I should be hitting on middle aged women and asking them if they want to go to the Mediteranean and see my Beach house on the coast of Spain, where clothing is optional and we can talk about whatever "Pops" up.

I feel gross.

Have you ever looked at an International Male Catalog? Well the Old ones had Nasty clothes that I would put on here if I could find an accurate description of how I feel. But of course when I want to show how nasty some of their clothing is they have a whole new line of Beautiful clothing. We used to laugh about how that was the magazine for a Priest, Vampire or European Gigelo.

Well...

The Puffy Pants are pretty tragic but the rest are Mild compared to other things that were on there before. Lets just say they liked Licra.

Any way... that gives you an Idea of how I feel.
dlb

Tickle Palmistry

2006-01-11T09:43:00.000-07:00

Daniel, the shape of your hand reveals that you are especially good at Living each day to its fullest

Based on the signs in your palm, you have much to gain by experiencing every day as if it were your last. By putting directed energy toward getting all that you can from life, your efforts will be returned multi-fold.

Tickle's Palmistry Test

Check it out... it could be fun
dlb

The Onion Strikes Truth again...

2006-01-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

Important Christmas lessons already forgotten

How true, yes how true.
dlb

Check this out

2006-01-10T20:45:00.000-07:00

I think that this might help...

even though those bands are totally out.
dlb

2006-01-10T17:48:00.000-07:00

I just have to give you this link and you can see for yourself...

Save money? Nah, just win the lottery - survey

Oh my God...

Are people serious
dlb

The Nature of Evil

2006-01-10T10:03:00.000-07:00

Well...

I finished it.

Wicked is an amazing Book. I Highly Recomend it.

There were things that left me unsatisfied and things that really blew me away. The author Gregory Maguire really has a way with making you feel for the characters that he has created, even though they do bad things we really understand the humaness to them. I find it interesting that he can really create a world based on something that has already been saturated into Pop Culture. I mean the liberties that he takes on the whole Oz world are rather astounding and yet make perfect sense. He uses the power of hearsay to great advantage which really peaks my interest.

I don't want to give anything away in the book. So read it and then we can discuss.

Then we need to go see the musical.
dlb

Thoughts on being 100% "Out"...

2006-01-09T07:01:00.000-07:00

I am out of the closet.

That is a broad statement that can be acurate and also not acurate based on who you are around and who you are talking to. I mean, my parents know, my siblings know (even though I haven't told some of them I know that they know), all of my co-workers all know in both jobs that I have here and in NY, and all of my friends that I see on a regular basis all know.

Again I say... I am out.

I then need to look at it from another perspective.

My Grandparents don't know that I am out. I think that maybe my parents have told them but I have never and so that just leaves them to live in denial and at family gatherings push for their little idea of what a good home life should be. i.e. I should get married and go back to church etc...

Some of my friends don't know that I am Gay. Like my friend that I just told you about in the Dipstick post, she doesn't have any clue that I am out.

And then there is the attitude that I have about it that changes whenever I am around others. For example, I never talk about it with my parents. They don't ask and I don't tell. Not that I think that they will shun me now, but I don't like rubbing it into their faces. They, and the rest of society think that it is somehow their fault and I don't like that idea so I don't rub it in.

And I have the same attitude with my job in Utah. I don't check on websites that might offend someone at work just because it has a Gay content and I don't talk about it at all.

I also am careful of who I tell about this website. I don't want some people on here in case they find the content offensive. Some people don't like seeing Nudity and others don't like seeing Gay content period.

Oh that I could be that out!!

I mean, not that I would do something like this... well ... maybe I would to have some fun, but I am not a very flambouyant person. I don't like to Flame all over people. I just wish that I could be myself in front of everyone I am around.

I know that this is a choice of mine. No one is making me choose to act different. And so I should just buck up and live with my choices until I choose to change.

I just think that it is interesting that there isn't a finish line. I will always have to Choose to come out again and again, everytime I meet someone. There will probably never be a time in my life where people will just know and accept when they meet me and so that leaves room for me to Curve my actions and words to hide and let them be in denial.

Don't get me wrong. I am proud of myself and of how far I have come in the battle against Homophobia. I just see now that it is unending. I will always have to Come out, over and over again. It is sometimes exausting and sometimes fun because I can teach and inform.

NE way...

Here is another crystal for the hope that Humanity will soon find it in their hearts to live and let live... And for the hope that all us Fags get the balls to not let it be easy for people to live in Denial.

dlb

I am completely weirded out that this happened to me...

2006-01-08T17:28:00.000-07:00

Image by Deborah Koff-Chapin

Those of you who know me, know (and those who don't are about to find out)that the thing that I am afraid of most in my life is to not be in control of my body. Yep... I am a control freak when it comes to my body. That is the number one reason that I will not get drunk, that I have only tried drugs sparingly and have never been truly high. I just don't like feeling like I want to tell my limb to move and it revolt's and refuse's. That is the reason that I don't like hospital corners on sheets and blankets in bed, I need to be able to move freely.

Well... last night at around 9:30pm I was lying down, watching Gillmore Girls and having a good time laying around. Well, when I got up to go to the restroom, my heart suddenly started beating really fast and I felt really light headed. I have had this happen to me before when I get up too fast and thought nothing of it, I just normally stop moving for a second and am fine after a while. Not this time. The next thing that I knew I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom in the corner with my eyes closed. There were millions of thoughts in my head shaking back and forth so fast that I couldn't tell one from another. I realized that I could feel the door molding on my spine moving back and forth really fast, then I noticed it on the back of my head. I was shaking uncontrolably. When I realized that I was shaking I had to break out of it really fast. So I forced myself to jump up and stand in the center of the room for a second and collect myself. (funny I never thought that I would ever had need to use that term before but it seems very appropriate for this experience) I then went into the living room and sat down and thought about what just happened, even then it didn't seem like I could have possibly just passed out and had a seizure, even though it had just happened to me. But I knew that I needed to not be alone anymore in case it happened again. So I called my parents to come and get me. They got to my house at around 10:05 pm which means that I couldn't have been out for much more than five minutes or so, if that.

Image by Philip Hitchcock Design
Any way...

Now that it has happened to me its not as scary as I thought it was going to be. Which I am thankful for. But I am a little worried as to the cause. I mean what am I doing differently now that I hadn't before. Except that I am now on new medication that I have never been on before. I don't do well on Medication. But it had already been in my system for about 12 hours and I had eaten after I had taken it all. So right now I think that it was a combination of the Drugs and getting up really fast after lying for so long.

NE way

Now I don't feel like I should be alone very much for a while, until I am off the medicine. Which really sucks because I am very used to having alone time and crave it alot now that I am living with 2 others in a 1 bedroom apartment. I never am alone.

NE way

Now you know, and knowing is half the battle
Go Jo. GI Joe
dlb

My Dipstick

2006-01-07T15:15:00.000-07:00

I find it interesting to go and see old friends. It is fascinating. I just went to see an old friend of mine from Junior High School through High School that I haven't seen in about 3 years because of this that and the other thing. It is amazing, I almost feel like I can use them as a Gauge of where I am in my life. I mean ... She has a husband and 2 kids, she is my age, 24, but she hasn't changed. She probably wont change much for the rest of her life. She will just keep on being the same old person. Which is a really good dipstick for me to test my changes and the way that I look at the world differently.

It was almost like we spoke a different language. I mean I was sitting there playing with their older child and the husband interupts to start talking about a car that he thought was cool that they decided to start making again. What the Hell? Do I look like I care? I mean what is going on with them, that is the best Cocktail talk He can come up with? I mean, I don't want to disrespect him and the way that they run their lives but I just got a brief glimpse into their souls while I was sitting in their living room and they are bored. They don't want to tackle the tough challenges that life has to offer (I am not saying that raising 2 children isn't a challenge). I feel like they almost live their lives so as not to feel that the missing parts are missing. The only thing that they find rewarding (This is based on the Intuitive hits I got from them) is their children, and so I found the children the most interesting. and all they wanted to do was subvert me from the kids into what they thought real life was all about, Cars, DVD's, and impressing me with their "lifestyle". Thank god these two created enough Drama to get them through so far or else they might not have made it through to be married this long. (or maybe not thank god so much) I mean is this what life is? This goes back to my earlier post about the Suicide that happened last year at the Orthodontist by where I work at the Kidney Foundation. Are we here just to procreate? by the hits I was getting in that house, NO! Life has goto include more than that, well at least for me. And that is what scares me the most. That I used to feel that way. I used to want just that. That was my Goal. Again, I want to clarify, I don't think that getting married and having a kid is Bad or wronge. I think that it is great. I can't wait to have both. I just don't think that that is the goal any longer. I don't think that there is a Goal and that is where i think the void came from in that family. I think that they grew up, like me with the expectation that marraige and a family are the end. Finish line. You win. all your problems are done and now you can relax. and I still find this Idea Romantic and apealing. But there is no finish line in this game that we call life. I mean come on people. you can find happy people and unhappy people leading everysort of lifestyle that you find out there. I don't think that there is a right, or a wronge lifestyle out there for me or for anyone to acheive. I think that is where alot of suffering comes from. so once again I have to step back and realize that I like my life the way that it is. I don't have to justify the way that I live it to anyone else. I don't even have to explain it. All I have to do is keep on testing myself to see if I am happy. If I am Great! Keep doing it. If I am not, Oh well. lets try something new. and never try to cover the unhappiness with stuff and boredom ever again.
dlb

Jon Stewart takes his act to the Academy Awards

2006-01-06T15:53:00.000-07:00

Comedy Central star chosen to host 78th annual Oscars

How Exciting

I love the Oscars and I love Jon Stewart... Its a match made in Heaven

dlb

To Save the whales or not to Save the whales...

2006-01-06T10:18:00.000-07:00

This is a debate that I don't know if I want to get involved in.

This is one of those moments where I don't know weather to go Extreme left and go Hippie on everyone's asses, or whether I should just remain Silent.

Here is the Scoop...

Greenpeace is claiming that Japan is using "Scientific" Whaling as a Front to Comercial Whaling which is Illegal becasue of the Endangered species status of the Whales that they are killing. And selling it to Gorton's Fisherman Company for use in food products. (Yep... Save the Whales)

Japan However is saying that there is no Commercial Hunting Going on and that it is purely Scientific.

Who do we believe?

I mean I am all for saving the whales but I know for a fact that Hippies can go overboard when they get in their activist modes. And I know that most Governments like to cut corners and make money wherever they see a buck. So who do we believe.

I tend to believe Greenpeace, (my hippie background) but also don't know if I want to weigh in on this subject becasue of the Negative view alot of people have of the "Save the Whales Hippies". Sometimes I feel that if I make a stand on this issue then people will close off communication with me becasue they think that I am just a crazy hippie and then everything that I say is written off, like issues that are closer to my heart, like Gay Rights.

NE way...

I like to pretend that someone other than me reads this, so if you are reading this and have an opinion then write me a comment.

dlb

watch out for this HOT star @ the Olympics

2006-01-04T15:14:00.000-07:00

This is Jonny Weir.

Yep he is really hot. And Yep I am a little obsessed with him. I am really excited to watch his performance @ the 2006 Winter games this year. (I love Ice Skating)

I hope that I can get someone with Television reception to let me watch the Games or record it for me.

Here are some more pics of him and his Talent.

And check him out
here.

He is good
dlb