I am completely weirded out that this happened to me...

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Those of you who know me, know (and those who don't are about to find out)that the thing that I am afraid of most in my life is to not be in control of my body. Yep... I am a control freak when it comes to my body. That is the number one reason that I will not get drunk, that I have only tried drugs sparingly and have never been truly high. I just don't like feeling like I want to tell my limb to move and it revolt's and refuse's. That is the reason that I don't like hospital corners on sheets and blankets in bed, I need to be able to move freely.

Well... last night at around 9:30pm I was lying down, watching Gillmore Girls and having a good time laying around. Well, when I got up to go to the restroom, my heart suddenly started beating really fast and I felt really light headed. I have had this happen to me before when I get up too fast and thought nothing of it, I just normally stop moving for a second and am fine after a while. Not this time. The next thing that I knew I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom in the corner with my eyes closed. There were millions of thoughts in my head shaking back and forth so fast that I couldn't tell one from another. I realized that I could feel the door molding on my spine moving back and forth really fast, then I noticed it on the back of my head. I was shaking uncontrolably. When I realized that I was shaking I had to break out of it really fast. So I forced myself to jump up and stand in the center of the room for a second and collect myself. (funny I never thought that I would ever had need to use that term before but it seems very appropriate for this experience) I then went into the living room and sat down and thought about what just happened, even then it didn't seem like I could have possibly just passed out and had a seizure, even though it had just happened to me. But I knew that I needed to not be alone anymore in case it happened again. So I called my parents to come and get me. They got to my house at around 10:05 pm which means that I couldn't have been out for much more than five minutes or so, if that.

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Any way...

Now that it has happened to me its not as scary as I thought it was going to be. Which I am thankful for. But I am a little worried as to the cause. I mean what am I doing differently now that I hadn't before. Except that I am now on new medication that I have never been on before. I don't do well on Medication. But it had already been in my system for about 12 hours and I had eaten after I had taken it all. So right now I think that it was a combination of the Drugs and getting up really fast after lying for so long.

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Now I don't feel like I should be alone very much for a while, until I am off the medicine. Which really sucks because I am very used to having alone time and crave it alot now that I am living with 2 others in a 1 bedroom apartment. I never am alone.

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Now you know, and knowing is half the battle
Go Jo. GI Joe
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