Saturday, January 07, 2006

My Dipstick

I find it interesting to go and see old friends. It is fascinating. I just went to see an old friend of mine from Junior High School through High School that I haven't seen in about 3 years because of this that and the other thing. It is amazing, I almost feel like I can use them as a Gauge of where I am in my life. I mean ... She has a husband and 2 kids, she is my age, 24, but she hasn't changed. She probably wont change much for the rest of her life. She will just keep on being the same old person. Which is a really good dipstick for me to test my changes and the way that I look at the world differently.

It was almost like we spoke a different language. I mean I was sitting there playing with their older child and the husband interupts to start talking about a car that he thought was cool that they decided to start making again. What the Hell? Do I look like I care? I mean what is going on with them, that is the best Cocktail talk He can come up with? I mean, I don't want to disrespect him and the way that they run their lives but I just got a brief glimpse into their souls while I was sitting in their living room and they are bored. They don't want to tackle the tough challenges that life has to offer (I am not saying that raising 2 children isn't a challenge). I feel like they almost live their lives so as not to feel that the missing parts are missing. The only thing that they find rewarding (This is based on the Intuitive hits I got from them) is their children, and so I found the children the most interesting. and all they wanted to do was subvert me from the kids into what they thought real life was all about, Cars, DVD's, and impressing me with their "lifestyle". Thank god these two created enough Drama to get them through so far or else they might not have made it through to be married this long. (or maybe not thank god so much) I mean is this what life is? This goes back to my earlier post about the Suicide that happened last year at the Orthodontist by where I work at the Kidney Foundation. Are we here just to procreate? by the hits I was getting in that house, NO! Life has goto include more than that, well at least for me. And that is what scares me the most. That I used to feel that way. I used to want just that. That was my Goal. Again, I want to clarify, I don't think that getting married and having a kid is Bad or wronge. I think that it is great. I can't wait to have both. I just don't think that that is the goal any longer. I don't think that there is a Goal and that is where i think the void came from in that family. I think that they grew up, like me with the expectation that marraige and a family are the end. Finish line. You win. all your problems are done and now you can relax. and I still find this Idea Romantic and apealing. But there is no finish line in this game that we call life. I mean come on people. you can find happy people and unhappy people leading everysort of lifestyle that you find out there. I don't think that there is a right, or a wronge lifestyle out there for me or for anyone to acheive. I think that is where alot of suffering comes from. so once again I have to step back and realize that I like my life the way that it is. I don't have to justify the way that I live it to anyone else. I don't even have to explain it. All I have to do is keep on testing myself to see if I am happy. If I am Great! Keep doing it. If I am not, Oh well. lets try something new. and never try to cover the unhappiness with stuff and boredom ever again.

Friday, January 06, 2006

Jon Stewart takes his act to the Academy Awards

Comedy Central star chosen to host 78th annual Oscars

How Exciting

I love the Oscars and I love Jon Stewart... Its a match made in Heaven


To Save the whales or not to Save the whales...

This is a debate that I don't know if I want to get involved in.

This is one of those moments where I don't know weather to go Extreme left and go Hippie on everyone's asses, or whether I should just remain Silent.

Here is the Scoop...

Greenpeace is claiming that Japan is using "Scientific" Whaling as a Front to Comercial Whaling which is Illegal becasue of the Endangered species status of the Whales that they are killing. And selling it to Gorton's Fisherman Company for use in food products. (Yep... Save the Whales)

Japan However is saying that there is no Commercial Hunting Going on and that it is purely Scientific.

Who do we believe?

I mean I am all for saving the whales but I know for a fact that Hippies can go overboard when they get in their activist modes. And I know that most Governments like to cut corners and make money wherever they see a buck. So who do we believe.

I tend to believe Greenpeace, (my hippie background) but also don't know if I want to weigh in on this subject becasue of the Negative view alot of people have of the "Save the Whales Hippies". Sometimes I feel that if I make a stand on this issue then people will close off communication with me becasue they think that I am just a crazy hippie and then everything that I say is written off, like issues that are closer to my heart, like Gay Rights.

NE way...

I like to pretend that someone other than me reads this, so if you are reading this and have an opinion then write me a comment.


Wednesday, January 04, 2006

watch out for this HOT star @ the Olympics

This is Jonny Weir.

Yep he is really hot. And Yep I am a little obsessed with him. I am really excited to watch his performance @ the 2006 Winter games this year. (I love Ice Skating)

I hope that I can get someone with Television reception to let me watch the Games or record it for me.

Here are some more pics of him and his Talent.

And check him out

He is good

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

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What element/angel are you?(with anime pics!)

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Your element is Light, you long to see others happy and hate to see people sad. you wish that all the wars and death would ceise to exist. you're the angel of hope. the happeist one of them all with your beauty and grace others long to be around you. you are the ones people look to when they've lost there path. you give others hope when no one else can.

The Magic
You reflect the magic of the spirit. You are a
mystical person who values the magic in life.
You enjoy the beauty in almost everything;
every sound, smell, touch, taste. Although you
find yourself pulled back to reality by the
pollution of earth, this a very lovely quality
to have, for there isn't much magic left.

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Darkness Is Your Power
You are able to summon death and any other dark
spirts. Black magic is also a speciality. the
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This is interesting

Men's Health Article
Tips you need for every part of your life
Find the Best Guy Wisdom Online

1. If your throat tickles, scratch your ear.

When you were 9, playing your armpit was a cool trick. Now, as an adult, you can still appreciate a good body-based feat, but you're more discriminating. Take that tickle in your throat; it's not worth gagging over. Here's a better way to scratch your itch: "When the nerves in the ear are stimulated, it creates a reflex in the throat that can cause a muscle spasm," says Scott Schaffer, M.D., president of an ear, nose and throat specialty center in Gibbsboro, New Jersey. "This spasm relieves the tickle."

2. Experience supersonic hearing!

If you're stuck chatting up a mumbler at a cocktail party, lean in with your right ear. It's better than your left at following the rapid rhythms of speech, according to researchers at the UCLA David Geffen School of Medicine. If, on the other hand, you're trying to identify that song playing softly in the elevator, turn your left ear toward the sound. The left ear is better at picking up music tones.

3. Overcome your most primal urge!

Need to pee? No bathroom nearby? Fantasize about Jessica Simpson. Thinking about sex preoccupies your brain, so you won't feel as much discomfort, says Larry Lipshultz, M.D., chief of male reproductive medicine at the Baylor College of Medicine. For best results, try Simpson's "These Boots Are Made for Walking" video.

4. Feel no pain!

German researchers have discovered that coughing during an injection can lessen the pain of the needle stick. According to Taras Usichenko, author of a study on the phenomenon, the trick causes a sudden, temporary rise in pressure in the chest and spinal canal, inhibiting the pain-conducting structures of the spinal cord.

5. Clear your stuffed nose!

Forget Sudafed. An easier, quicker, and cheaper way to relieve sinus pressure is by alternately thrusting your tongue against the roof of your mouth, then pressing between your eyebrows with one finger. This causes the vomer bone, which runs through the nasal passages to the mouth, to rock back and forth, says Lisa DeStefano, D.O., an assistant professor at the Michigan State University college of osteopathic medicine. The motion loosens congestion; after 20 seconds, you'll feel your sinuses start to drain.

6. Fight fire without water!

Worried those wings will repeat on you tonight? "Sleep on your left side," says Anthony A. Star-poli, M.D., a New York City gastroenterologist and assistant professor of medicine at New York Medical College. Studies have shown that patients who sleep on their left sides are less likely to suffer from acid reflux. The esophagus and stomach connect at an angle. When you sleep on your right, the stomach is higher than the esophagus, allowing food and stomach acid to slide up your throat. When you're on your left, the stomach is lower than the esophagus, so gravity's in your favor.

7. Cure your toothache without opening your mouth!

Just rub ice on the back of your hand, on the V-shaped webbed area between your thumb and index finger. A Canadian study found that this technique reduces toothache pain by as much as 50 percent compared with using no ice. The nerve pathways at the base of that V stimulate an area of the brain that blocks pain signals from the face and hands.

8. Make burns disappear!

When you accidentally singe your finger on the stove, clean the skin and apply light pressure with the finger pads of your unmarred hand. Ice will relieve your pain more quickly, Dr. DeStefano says, but since the natural method brings the burned skin back to a normal temperature, the skin is less likely to blister.

9. Stop the world from spinning!

One too many drinks left you dizzy? Put your hand on something stable. The part of your ear responsible for balance—the cupula—floats in a fluid of the same density as blood. "As alcohol dilutes blood in the cupula, the cupula becomes less dense and rises," says Dr. Schaffer. This confuses your brain. The tactile input from a stable object gives the brain a second opinion, and you feel more in balance. Because the nerves in the hand are so sensitive, this works better than the conventional foot-on-the-floor wisdom.

10. Unstitch your side!

If you're like most people, when you run, you exhale as your right foot hits the ground. This puts downward pressure on your liver (which lives on your right side), which then tugs at the diaphragm and creates a side stitch, according to The Doctors Book of Home Remedies for Men. The fix: Exhale as your left foot strikes the ground.

11. Stanch blood with a single finger!

Pinching your nose and leaning back is a great way to stop a nosebleed—if you don't mind choking on your own O positive. A more civil approach: Put some cotton on your upper gums—just behind that small dent below your nose—and press against it, hard. "Most bleeds come from the front of the septum, the cartilage wall that divides the nose," says Peter Desmarais, M.D., an ear, nose, and throat specialist at Entabeni Hospital, in Durban, South Africa. "Pressing here helps stop them."

12. Make your heart stand still!

Trying to quell first-date jitters? Blow on your thumb. The vagus nerve, which governs heart rate, can be controlled through breathing, says Ben Abo, an emergency medical-services specialist at the University of Pittsburgh. It'll get your heart rate back to normal.

13. Thaw your brain!

Too much Chipwich too fast will freeze the brains of lesser men. As for you, press your tongue flat against the roof of your mouth, covering as much as you can. "Since the nerves in the roof of your mouth get extremely cold, your body thinks your brain is freezing, too," says Abo. "In compensating, it overheats, causing an ice-cream headache." The more pressure you apply to the roof of your mouth, the faster your headache will subside.

14. Prevent near-sightedness!

Poor distance vision is rarely caused by genetics, says Anne Barber, O.D., an optometrist in Tacoma, Washington. "It's usually caused by near-point stress." In other words, staring at your computer screen for too long. So flex your way to 20/20 vision. Every few hours during the day, close your eyes, tense your body, take a deep breath, and, after a few seconds, release your breath and muscles at the same time. Tightening and releasing muscles such as the biceps and glutes can trick involuntary muscles—like the eyes—into relaxing as well.

15. Wake the dead!

If your hand falls asleep while you're driving or sitting in an odd position, rock your head from side to side. It'll painlessly banish your pins and needles in less than a minute, says Dr. DeStefano. A tingly hand or arm is often the result of compression in the bundle of nerves in your neck; loosening your neck muscles releases the pressure. Compressed nerves lower in the body govern the feet, so don't let your sleeping dogs lie. Stand up and walk around.

16. Impress your friends!

Next time you're at a party, try this trick: Have a person hold one arm straight out to the side, palm down, and instruct him to maintain this position. Then place two fingers on his wrist and push down. He'll resist. Now have him put one foot on a surface that's a half inch higher (a few magazines) and repeat. This time his arm will cave like the French. By misaligning his hips, you've offset his spine, says Rachel Cosgrove, C.S.C.S., co-owner of Results Fitness, in Santa Clarita, California. Your brain senses that the spine is vulnerable, so it shuts down the body's ability to resist.

17. Breathe underwater!

If you're dying to retrieve that quarter from the bottom of the pool, take several short breaths first—essentially, hyperventilate. When you're underwater, it's not a lack of oxygen that makes you desperate for a breath; it's the buildup of carbon dioxide, which makes your blood acidic, which signals your brain that somethin' ain't right. "When you hyperventilate, the influx of oxygen lowers blood acidity," says Jonathan Armbruster, Ph.D., an associate professor of biology at Auburn University. "This tricks your brain into thinking it has more oxygen." It'll buy you up to 10 seconds.

18. Read minds!

Your own! "If you're giving a speech the next day, review it before falling asleep," says Candi Heimgartner, an instructor of biological sciences at the University of Idaho. Since most memory consolidation happens during sleep, anything you read right before bed is more likely to be encoded as long-term memory.

I am in a contemplative mood... I'm not mad Damn it!!

I have been thinking alot today about this movie...

Sorry the picture is soo small, I can't seem to find an image of the poster that will get bigger and work with Blogger... maybe I will get better at it as time goes on...

I just saw Brokeback Mountain Yesterday at the Only Theatre in Utah that is showing it. and that theatre is about 50 miles away. (If that isn't dedication I don't know what is) And it truely affected me.

I am always surprised when there is a movie that can make me feel about it long after I watch it. Alot of movies make me think about them long after I watch them but very rarely can a movie make me feel about it for a long time after watching it. And I barely even cried during it. (I thought I would be bawling like a baby, but they only got me in the end)

I was struck with the sadness of the whole situation. I mean it really sucked. There were no real good guys or bad guys, which I reallly enjoy in a movie. You feel for everyone in the movie and it just feels bad.

I don't want to give you the wrong impression, I really liked the movie. (I have decided after a night of just pondering and processing) It's just that the situation sucked for everyone involved.

It's such a problem right now in our world. I hate the closet. I think that the closet is a death trap. A death trap for the soul. I find it funny that when I was in the closet I had such a hard time imagining a world outside the closet, now that I am out I find it hard to imagine life in the closet again. I just can't fathom life there anymore and I am tearing up right now thinking about people who are terified for their lives because of the closet. I don't mean to seem Melodramatic, but it is all soo sad.

Watch This Movie Today.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Have you Read this

This is an absolutely wonderful book.

I was just going to the News stand in the airport on Saturday looking for something to keep me occupied while I had a 12 hour travel day and I picked this up.

It is fabulous. I highly recomend it. I laugh out loud and am shocked and love the characters and it is just wonderful so go out and buy it imediately. I need to see the play now, although I am very glad that I read the book, I kindof wish I hadn't before I watched the play because alot of times we get disapointed in the movie or play if we read the book first, but if we do it the other way around then we tend to like it better.

new way...

tell me if you have read this book or have seen the play.
mr dlb style